Reluctantly Dead - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

The blood on my hands is like drugs on my nose

I've been confused with someone who's in control

Of all the things that will happen anyway

So I'll just continue on the path that I hate

Cause I'm gonna find my way

I've been grabbing at sand just to watch it slip away

I put both my hands up and I started to pray

That you ain't like me and that you'll let me walk away

But I'll understand it if you choose to kill me

Would've probably done the same

I would've probably done the same

You believe that they came here to protect you

But see I would rather run

Cause now the law results in a death

Once you understand that you've got control

See I'd be confused for someone you'll never know

Cause all of those things were gonna happen anyway

Somewhere within you lies the one that you hate

I'm gonna fuck myself today

I'd rather fuck myself today

You believe that they came here to protect you

But see I would rather run

Cause now the law results in a death

You believe that they came here to protect you

But see I am not the one

Cause I will be reluctantly dead

I'll never be alone again

But do you realise you're my only friend

I feel at home again

Home again

I'll never be alone again

Yeah I feel that I'm my only friend

I feel at home again (home again)

And this is all pretend

You believe that they came here to protect you

But see I would rather run

Cause now the law results in a death

You believe that they came here to protect you

But see I am not the one

Cause I will be reluctantly dead