I been thinking 'bout death again

Imaginin' I'm takin my last breath and then

As the light fades from my eyes

Say last goodbyes when I die, will I

Be thrust into an eternal darkness?

Experience superlative catharsis?

Regenerate, hang out with Jack Harkness?

Or become a star and sparkle in the sparse night sky?

And what if God exists?

And we really put his son up on a crucifix?

And I can't convince him that I'm free of sin

When I'm at the gates, will he let me in?

He probably won't

I'll probably float

Down the river Styx in a shoddy boat

Coin down my throat

If I'm not broke

Hope I don't choke

On the price of admission

That's Charon's commission

And by my admission

I'm wishin' that you will see my apparition

A vision of me if you truly believe

That a spirit can leave

Or is that superstition?

And how do I die? Is it malnutrition?

Is my body riddled with live ammunition?

Guess it doesn't matter, I'm just a musician

I'm not 27, I'm in no position of power

In my final hour

Don't want you to cry

So please don't be sad

Just smile and think of the good times we had

I know it's a cliché

And it's easier said than done

I'm done with feeling like I'm falling apart

I'm sick of dealing with concealing all the fear in my heart

It's time for healing if you're willing and before I depart

Let's go back to the start

I been thinkin' bout death again

Imaginin' I'm taking my last breath and then

Wonderin' when I go, will I be missed?

I never really was an optimist but tell me

Will you remember me when they bury me

Six feet deep beneath your feet?

Or will I fade, slowly recede

Into the deep dark depths of obscurity?

Depression is telling me I got no worth

My birth is the worst thing that happened to earth

To think people like me? I got some nerve

And happiness is not something I deserve

I know it's not true

I know it's a lie

I know that I shouldn't feel empty inside

But I can't tell myself that

'Cause myself won't listen

And myself is obsessed

With self demolition

The idea of dying scares me to death

But I won't let it stop me from living my best

Life and I hope you'll be there for the rest

A lifetime with you, how could I be so blessed?

It's true, without you, it would not be worth living

I'm thankful for you every single thanksgiving

The dictionary is not what gives life its meaning

It's you, it's been you ever since the beginning

I been thinking 'bout death again

Imaginin' I'm taking my last-