Huh, huh

Travelling back into my life

It might give you a fright of how I rolled the dice

Killed my old life of academia, became an artist overnight

“What was that like?”

The scariest thing I’ve ever done

Bullet to my brain and I was the one holding the gun

I begun with simple lessons, yes, I’m self-taught

Repetition is the medicine, skills can’t be bought

Floor, pedal to the floor, no days off I want more

Than the petty offerings displayed in the lecture halls

I was born to soar, a simple universal law

Of course, my beginnings were poor

But it didn’t put me off I said “no more”

What I want is mine so imma go get what’s yours

Cos you’re not moving, stuck in stall

Hands in your pockets staring at the glass wall, come on

You may wonder, what’s the key to my success?

How’d I get here and, huh, what is next?

I ask myself these questions as I lay in my bed

Around, around, around they suffocate my head

To start frank becoming successful is painful

Everyday working how is this sustainable?

It isn’t but I push through the days with no resources

Resort to leaning back on my weapons, my strength sources

“Hi, I’m Lefturn and I am an addict”

Improvement is my poison, as close to perfect

As possible, number one on my wish list

Night after night crying to sleep that’s how much I want this

Only thing I think, live and breathe is music

Not only toxic to me but my relationships

Caution happiness clears quickly, too metabolic

No time off work, everyday even when I had no voice

Scream noise came out, in my head no other choice

“I lost a friend”, “I’m so Cold” and “Closure”, where birthed this way

Listen back you can hear my voice and body break

Woke up the next day, was spitting blood

I tore my body apart to fill other with love

What’s the use if I abuse myself for a muse

If I lose pass me the noose

But I won’t and this I will prove

I will prove

Yeah

Once again

I had a dream, I pursued my dream

Is this what it feels like to succeed?

Is love what it seems?

Will this break me at my seams?

Thank you, I love you