For someone I thought I'd never lose, I'm sorry to say

It gets harder and harder to keep you every single motherfucking day

I hate the shit I make up in my mind

I hate searching for feelings I'm not supposed to find

I'm confronted with more that I make up myself

Every part of it desecrates my mental health

I surround myself with what I need to forget what I hate

But it know it will never leave me alone, it does no good to wait

It's both of our faults, but it's mostly mine still you make no attempt to try to help me to feel fine

Even though we're partners and should overcome problems as two

The focus ends up that it's just my problem and it doesn't affect you

I hope this gets better

I hope I forget all these feelings of pain and betrayal and this self destructive shit

What you may not understand is that I'm half of a whole

And when this half goes insane I hope it fucking takes its toll

I hope this gets better

I hope I forget all these feelings of pain and betrayal and this self destructive shit

Fuck - you - bitch