[Verse 1]

Drugs are the only thing that make me feel normal

I'm a fuckin’ lonely thing that acts informal

Bitch, I'm unholy and mostly subnormal

If you look closely you can see I lack morals

I'm just a teen who thinks life is against him

Hides behind a screen and pretends to have ransom

On him, but in fact he’s barely a phantom

Not even eighteen, yet wrote a memorandum

A reminder that I gotta write the note

Before I down this bottle of pills I've approached

I wanna pop some pills and slit my fucking throat

And end my damn life while my lungs are full of smoke

Smoke from the weed I use to numb the fuckin' pain

I need this shit so I can feel somewhat sane

It's a shame that I've become what I came;

Fucked up mentally, and very far from tame

So why not come after me and lead a fuckin' witch hunt

You'll find me chillin' and smokin’ on a fat blunt

Fuckin’ on a fat cunt with no fuckin' mask on

My will to live? I ain’t got a fuckin' grasp on

That motherfucker, I'm extremely suicidal

I'm a piece of scat, motherfucker, seemly homicidal

I’m a fuckin' brat, man, so I routinely stand idle

Man, I guess I am my own goddamn rival

[Verse 2]

Yeah, I wanna end my life

I despise myself, so please shove a fucking knife

Through my goddamn heart and send me to the light

Please don't look at me, I'm an unpleasant sight

I release my pain with the words that I write

Smokin' from a glass piece, I do it with delight

I wish I was deceased, I might do that tonight

But honestly, I'm too pussy to do it, alright?

So I just sit here, smoking and writing

Down my feelings and provoking and fighting

I'm not healing, but I'm coping and residing

In my pain, I'm evoking my slighting

I don't know why I'm being so goddamn open

Everybody hates me; the embodiment of broken

Death awaits me, please leave shit unspoken

I'm terrible to talk to, ‘cause of all my emotions

I keep to myself and stay fuckin' isolated

I constantly weep and get all agitated

Hate being sober and I'm always being gravitated

To any damn substance when I'm aggravated

Like a fuckin' bowl or a bottle of vodka

Or the damn xans mixed with some Kamchatka

Bitch I'm as useful as a motherfuckin' Honda

I do shit by my own accord, and that includes the ganja

“Smoke away the pain” is a phrase I say often

Man, fuck the summer rays, that shit won't soften

My mean demeanor, so you better take some caution

I used to be a positive dreamer, but I've fallen

‘Cause I don't see the light in the world anymore

And motherfucker, I'm not afraid to explore

My deplorable feelings; it's self-loathing galore

But honestly, no one cares, ‘cause I'm always ignored

[Verse 3]

Arms full of scars from the cutting I've been doing

Razor blade stained; disgusting thoughts been brewing

In my fuckin' brain, my fronting's been improving

Been actin' happy as hell, you ain't misconstruing

I'm good at hidin' shit I don't want people to see

Sick of dick ridin' bitches, like some treacle, shit's juicy

My mental state's on a steep hill, I'm a prick you see

So if you try to talk to me, I'll say “who me?”

‘Cause everyone avoids me; I'm a fuckin' outcast

I'm void of emotions, I wanna get out fast

I'm annoyed, I wish there were a potion to blast

Me to the past; I've toyed with notions since passed

Wanna go back to times I didn't use drugs to cope

With the pain in my rhymes; I've started to lose hope

‘Cause it's been a minute since I felt any form of joy

I'm finished with life and being played like a toy