Expectations I hold high

Hold them higher than the sky

I want to be successful

But I know I’m a mess though

I think of my love, grim

But a lot of shit I don’t understand

I can’t comprehend the world around me

But I guess I’ll have to wait and see

What life holds I don’t know

How to grow up I’m on hold

I stay alone in my room

Hoping to go out soon

But it’s sad really I don’t have friends

That hang out with me I’m hopeless

But I guess I’ll be fine stocking my friends online

I comment to be noticed

That is my true motive

But it’s not for the attention

It’s just for the affection

I want to stay right by your side

But expectations make me cry

I think I will fuck up

And you’ll start to lose my trust

People say they like me

That I do not see

I think I’m worthless

I think I’m like the rest

I have nothing to offer

Except a love but who bothers

It’s super sad I know but that’s not all I want to hold

I like girls that’s kinda cliche

But what’s the point they think I’m gay

Expectations that I have always turn sad

Cuz I know I’m a heartless

Infact, I have huge heart

But everytime I think of love

I know it will not start

Girls never liked me

They only date from pity

I try to be a nice guy

But girls don’t like nice guys

So I’ll stay single

But I’ll still try to mingle

Just in case one comes along

And helps me rethink life

Life is something special

But I know I’m not special

I know I’m not owed anything

But I would like something

I keep taking L’s

When I just try to help

But that’s how it’s supposed to be

I guess it’s just me

And everytime I’m around

I struggle to make a sound

I’m so nervous, I’m so sweaty

Vomit on my shirt already

But I push through, I move on

So they know I’m not gone

But it’s like I’m not there

It’s like I’m just a bunch of air

But at least I feel included

But this is so convoluted

I don’t know if they like me

Oh man I hate anxiety

I open my mouth and sigh

Never wanna ask me why

I didn’t mean to I’m so sorry

Then I go back to being quietly

I tell a joke here and there

But everyone just stares

I know I’m not that funny

But I still try comedy

And everytime I try

I happen to just cry

No one seems to laugh

And that makes me sad

I fail every time I try

It doesn’t matter what I try

It’ll always end badly

Always making me sadly

But I’ll be fine

I’ll be okay

I don’t need to be saved

I just wish I was better

Than me but whatever

I’ll keep working on myself

Hopefully I leave the cell

I built for myself

And make it out of this hell

I made from expectations

They’re kinda like Satan

Hopefully I feel better

But I guess it’ll be whatever