[Interlude 1]

Welcome

Now here I am

Standing here again

On the crossroads

Between these two paths

And I want to go the right way

And I really try to go this right way

But the results of my disadvantages

Are pushing me further

And further

To the darker side

Is it my own fault?

Mine and only mine?

Is it just how it has to be?

When I feel like

I'm just wasting myself here

But there is no way that it could change

Is there really no way I could fix what used to be broken?

Like everything in this mess is broken

And sometimes I just don't know what to do anymore

You know?

But I try

I try to overcome myself

And all these obstacles

To gain more motivation

And prevent myself from losing it

Trying to put more effort on all of the things that I do

Either physical or mental

Because when it's all done

It gets to my head

That I can change

I know I can change

And affect on everything

That has been around me

Shorter or longer

Throughout my entire life

I can let all these people help me

And I can also let myself help them

But, you know, how it all goes

It all depends on me

So now

Let me rise

Climb on the top of my world

Start the new age

And become the king of the mountain

Being my own life

To finally feel complete

And I want to stay

Stay here as long as I can

And live it all to the fullest

I have to take my chance

Before again

It's all gone

And I'm here

Leaving this messAge

[Interlude 2]

And who the fuck do you think you are, huh?

You are nobody

You are nothing

Yes, you're right, you dont belong here

We don't want you

Nobody wants you

There is no one that will help you

Your screaming is meaningless

You just act like you're hurt

Other people have worse than you

You don't even deserve to say that

You don't deserve to say anything

You don't deserve to be anything

You are a loser

You will always despise what you have become

That is what God created you for

Nobody cares about you

You're not important

You're not special

You're mediocre

Why won't you give up like you always do?

Nothing more than disappointment

A disgrace to us

You will never be strong enough

You will never be good enough

You will never be happy

You won't achieve what you dream about

Your dreams won't come true

You will always regret what you have not done

Nobody will understand you

No one needs you

Your life is an illusion you have created

Your life is a failure

You are a failure

You will be alone

Misunderstood

Forever

[Verse]

Following it all into a hollow alternately trying to climb out or fall down and somehow justify

Pushing the throttle and avoiding every battle, but it's really hard to run away if they all are here just to fight

Unjust if I want to only reconcile as much as I can but I've been only bringing myself much stress

Ingesting finally that I will never know what will come in my way and I gotta just come through it I guess

Already've tried to not suspect that but I have to be ready for things unexpected

Be steady in all I've perfected, not let it fall in me and become rejected

But everyday I vary between staying or running and it's hard to get to next page

Knowing that every moment I may be closer to being left undone leaving this messAge