Persecuted - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

Nothing seems to be like it was supposed to

All my dreams slowly flee away to the unknown

Do I believe in me? I think not anymore

Too many people here again to disappoint

But do you see what I see? Do we live in the same world?

I don't feel free, disagree, want to abandon all

Though I don't need enemies, 'cause it's already for me

Hard to sleep, hard to breathe, hard to live in this horror

Live with this tremendous sorrow

Knowing that nothing exciting will happen tomorrow

Knowing that only anxiety hitting me right in my soul

And making me fall is the one which I will follow

And every damn day same pain stays same way

May the sane grey brain pay so much?

Doubted by everybody just lay and decay

Trying to say what I'm about to the surrounding ones that feel so top-notch

Trying to make them listen, but it seems like I'm missing

Like if I broke through the side of my head with Smith & Wesson

It wouldn't change anything

Doesn't matter how you can call me, my phone does rarely ring

But I'd better get up and bring myself out to make it end, not to begin

So I can win taking over my sins and I can grin

Confidently, not gently refusing everything

With what's really going on with me hidden so deep within

And what was the origin?

Of all these things hard to utter from over the chin

Feeling like a banished king, power's vanished

Only left with the uncompleteness pinned

And I just sit here, write and think 'bout all I've waited for and what's gone with the wind

Stuck in this frozen hell, not able to get out from this realm without any hint

[Chorus]

Persecuted by the thoughts of how I'm wasting all the time but when I want to step forward I always doubt myself

How to change it is the question that's taken over my mind and I am looking out there for anyone down to help

Because when I'm all alone I could not be able to withdraw from this incompleteness I suffer from in pain

(Like every second of my life has been drained)

Persecuted by the thoughts of all this fucking hesitation, I just gotta eradicate it but I need a hint

'Cause that all I've done and all I haven't came up to just nothing and if that keeps on going soon I'll be gone with the wind

So do they even care or should I just prepare to end up stuck between life and death?

(And nobody's here when I'm holding my breath)

[Bridge]

And after all I'm still asking: what am I doing here?

Designed to fall, I will not rise and that's my biggest fear

And as I see I don't belong there and nowhere near

Afraid of being left undone when death will whisper to my ear

[Verse 2]

But what do you hear from what I do speak? Why don't you want me to make everything clear?

My face I do tear, I'm only a freak alone in this world that looks so insincere

Am I able to ever achieve my peak not even knowing as what it could appear?

Though I can only feel my emotion leak that starts to become enourmously severe

And now I'm telling you 'bout this switching to next gear, because this is my style of rapping, not a way to compete (no more)

But I know that regardless of what I say still they will bring their hate up and bring my head down to the concrete

Not only as so-called artist, but it hurts my whole self, oh well, I feel so obsolete

And it's all rather my fault that I don't feel complete and sometimes I wonder if I could just delete

But I'm here broken, hard yn this situation to mute

But I'm choking on every single one of your disputes

Sick of this, though can I finally be the one who's walking resolute

Through the path of my life and I want to be rightful person worth any tribute

After all my sins will be distributed

And I will become another soul substituted

Will it be what I want - my whole life fully executed?

Or to the very end I will never stop getting persecuted