[Intro]

Why should I even do it

When it won't change anything again?

Why do I even try

When in the result

Everything is even worse

Everyday I hope to overcome myself

And make everything better

And I try my best to do it

But something always has to slip

Doubted by world, by myself

I'm alone in this place

Stuck with no perspectives

And no one to understand my suffering

With an eternal regret

Why does it always turn out so tragic?

Like it was better if everyone got rid of me

And now I feel

Like I am nothing

[Verse 1]

And I don't even know

How to begin this song

Unborn seed never grown

Everything has gone wrong

Where do I truly belong?

I've never known since the birth

Stuck in this world, stuck among

These people making me hell on earth

Don't tell me 'cause I know I have always been far from perfect

Instead of improvement though I reached the bottom, it's been a fact

Emotionally dismembered, but the peace I didn't earn

Nothing I have ever learned and my dreams I ignite and burn

Is it the point of no return? In sorrow, regret, own tears I drown

No help here, everyone turned against me 'cause I've let everybody down

So take my crown I've never been given, the king of my own lies I've been living

I'll never 'stand myself, I'm worthless and unforgiven

[Chorus 1]

How can I see it when everyday I go blind?

No one understands me, you don't know what's in my mind, you don't know

I always try my best so why do I make it worse so often?

It's not my world anymore and I'm becoming nothing

[Bridge]

Is it what I deserve?

[Verse 2]

You know, I've always felt the difference between me and these people around

Although I feel the distance I try to connect with the sound

But something went wrong with deliverance, the letter was never found

Every day could be an instance how from all people surrounding me

Everyone's doubting me, not letting me being proud of me

Of course I'd rather be one of them, but would something be left inside of me?

And as I think I start to believe that it is not them

Maybe finally I conceived it is who I am

And when they laughed or raged at me I felt the guilt and I was right

It's all my fault and the result of my mistakes I did provide

But whatever it takes I cannot prevent it, get better at it, even when I try to fight

Indeed a tragic conflict

Or how I only want to justify

Soon I'll be gone, why should I not give up when change for the better is for me too tough? And

I worry they don't want to talk about me, but I also don't want them to do it so often

I wanna be alone but I want them to be here, paradox leading me straight to the coffin

But I already feel dead, feel like I am nothing

[Interlude]

I already feel like I am dead

Like for all these years

I've been commiting suicide in smaller amounts

But how would you feel

Realizing that you live in your own lies

And wasting yourself

Being too conscious to ignore your weaknesses

And being too weak to step up to the comfort of your consciousness

It is who I am

A protagonist of a perfect tragedy

Want to get better - and stuck the same

Want to make something better - but I always make it all worse

Want these people to ignore me and to care about me

And there is still hope left within me

And it is what's killing me inside

And even though I know it

I just cannot accept

That I've become nothing

[Chorus 2]

How can I see it when everyday I go blind?

No one understands me, you don't know what's in my mind, you will never know

I've always tried my best so why do I make it worse so often?

It's not my world anymore and I'm becoming nothing

[Outro]

And I cannot change it

Cannot accept it either

I am the chosen one to suffer from this pain

But you don't even care, do you?

I am just another stressed out teenager

Another rapper with another song on the another album

And it means everything to me

But it means nothing

I mean nothing

At all

Nothing