[Verse]

Feels like it shouldn't be over

That something I've missed on this way

But what's left to say about me?

That I try to feel great another day?

Everything I've said way before that date

But that didn't stop the brain to decay

Turn everything gray, before I could pay

More attention, but it maybe was the fate

Or maybe I've just found that I create

That mistake all around and that's what I hate

I gotta wake up somehow, it's already late

So don't wait, do it now, gotta seperate

Worse side of me that dominates

Lazier side of me that abominates

More afraid side of me doubting who I try to be

And everything that my own rules violate

It can be easy to say you could think, but not much harder to do

If only it was just me to bring this but it is also what they put me through

It could never be nice in the same time suffering twice

Sometimes I just wanna slice, cut myself open, again needless sacrifice

Everybody wanna put me in the coma

And it's really hard to find the way to not slip in undone, I

Might consider getting positivity, but how to come up

Against all that going out of and into my brain and I'ma

Slowly withering away, but still I feel I can save it from getting utterly

Depressing, with no exit, I just gotta get some out of me

And find out what is hard to see, like find completely other me

Getting back on the path to the one who I gotta be

Starting with smallest steps, millimeter after millimeter

It's the solution perhaps to make me concede that I am the defeater

When I'ma writing my raps, but not about running up to houses dumping the heater

Or talking for real about having imagined bitches and the money, I don't wanna be a cheater like that

Unless it's straight from your heart or some kind of creative script, could have been either

Ultimately though it's all up to you with your own minds and preferences, I'm not your leader

Some could say though, I never was and now I ain't dope

And just because they say so I should quit and they laugh and it couldn't get clearer

Like I do, I should just get through and continue my music as it gets neater

I just need some time and tools and reacting to hate is what I don't need

Therefore I put it here so it will chase me no more and I have to do it like a seed to grow

Using everything that I need to know to not fall but still be there

Opposite of when I look up to the world and I just see deranged faces

In deranged races just to only beat their opponents because of jealousy

I just wanna make it a fantasy

By the way, speaking about the races, I do fast rap, but neither

Did I nor do I and not even will I just spit the bullshit, be a fast mumble spitter

A DH courier with nothing but L to deliver for myself to take (Don't lose) 'Cause I'm not a fella to spit the same shit hella fast 'til your headache (Refuse)

'Cause "I'ma hit 'em with the venom when I get up in 'em and I [INAUDIBLE]" is not all I can say

Attacking such uncreativity and I try to stand up against it, don't take me away

I already waste too much time and every song comes with a delay

As I have to feel it to rhyme 'bout something so don't behave this way

Don't ask for some quicker sixteen when I pass through 'cause you ignorantly refuse to believe

And don't mess with me trying to laugh with your bastards and even record it to later retrieve

How fucked can they be? Can I even breathe? I just cannot let this shit get to me

I lay and I plead for someone to see what's happening here, just help me, please

Or fuck it, it's my problem and alone I gotta solve it here

And fuck everybody who's doubting me, so mainly fuck myself as I can see

And fuck myself for all these petty insults shot right at me

For change I get ready and surprisingly with myself I agree

You see how complicated it is when to smallest elements I break it down?

All these little hated mistakes forming into big problems I fight with now

The time is limited and this is the monent that I should finally take over it

Fitted piece by piece into my plan of an ultimate recovery

And now my duty is to warm up my heart so cold

And to start to see the beauty of this amazing world

Fix all that way and live my life, aim for the sun

Happy of these little things making sure in the end everything I've done

And that's real