[Intro One: The Education of Sonny Carson]

'What they gives you, blood?'

'Three months, man.'

'Whatchu doin in here anyway? You oughta be home with your momma. How old are you boy?'

'Thirteen.'

'Thirteen? Damn, the bastards must be runnin' outta niggas to arrest.'

[Verse 1: Kur]

Check, my life fucked up

Can't complain a lot of times I done fucked up

Had tough luck, I ain't have enough love

Plenty nights I went to sleep ain't have enough grub

Or I ain't eat at all

Niggas couldn't live my life

Nowhere to go, sleeping outside I did that twice

No toilet paper, used socks, did that some nights

What the fuck did I do make me live so trife

I need heat at night

My stomach growl it wake me up, how I sleep at night

The wet aroma in the air, how I breathe at night

Everything that's in the dark gon see that light

So Imma see that light

I wanted to walk just like you

Wanted to talk just like you

Wanted to smoke wet and dip Ports, just like you

Heard you fuckin niggas for money, c'mon that's not you

Damn, I really hope that that's not true

I know Jamie feel left out too

I gotta be her brother, her father, I gotta step up too

Sometimes I rather see you dead, than to see you alive

I hate you, cause most the times you was the reason I cried

Most of the times you was the reason that I hated myself

On my own, can't wait to say I made it myself

When I was down and needed you, you never came to give help

You should be ashamed of yourself

But I ain't pointing fingers

Man what happened to my mom, you like a fucking stranger

But I still love you more than life, and I can't fucking change it

Just know I got us, we'll be good when I get fucking famous

When I get fucking famous

It's like God don't care

It's like some nights I can't call on him

I don't trust a soul, even my mom called the law on me

Told them I was trapping, that's the night I had jars on me

Why you wanna see your only son with a charge on him

[Verse 2: Dot]

Dear mom, I used to blame you for the time you missed

But just know I still love you

And dear daddy, for some years you had a nigga sick

But just know I still love you

Cause my struggle only made me stronger

I made it through the abuse, through the tears, through the hunger

I remember nights when I couldn't sleep

Hoping you would finally come around and tell me you could take me home

But that was only but a dream, no reality in sight

A lot of times I wanted to end my life, but I kept the pushing

I was truly just a lost soul

No love, didn't even have a stable place to call home

When I looked in the mirror I seen a blank face

And in my heart I can really feel it crying

A lot of deep emotion, a lot of things that I was feeling

Wondering how the fuck could you leave your son alone

In these places where these people only cared about a check

And had me eating grease out the bottom of the pan

And them fresh ass whoopings when you jumping out the tub

You know the one with the baby oil rubbed all on the belt

And I was only five

I used to wish ya would've fucking saved me

Would've held me tight and raised me like your baby

Would've been around and watched me grow into a man

But Im older now, I'm in the world, and now I understand