(Verse One)

I’m getting cabin fever and I can’t escape the woods

The bottles are the witches, can’t label them bad or good

Distorting my reality, the way I’ve learned to deal

My mind is playing tricks on me, I can’t tell what is real

The line of fucked and sober is an area of grey

My friends all know my story so there’s nothing left to say

After many conversations, the answers repeat clear

I’m burning people out, no one wants my damage near

(Pre Chorus)

I’m losing all control and I’ve let go of the wheel

I’ve disregarded everyone, don’t care how they all feel

You cannot love another until you have loved yourself

But I can’t look in a mirror without the toxic forms of help

I’m spinning like a ferris wheel, ride my highs and lows

I am feeling dizzy, numbness spreads from head to toes

So sit down, watch me go and please catch me if I fall

You’re witness to the casualties of my internal brawls

(Chorus)

Watch me spin, watch me spin, I’m stuck inside a loop

Break me in, break me in, until I snap then droop

Watch me go, watch me go, watch me let go of my fears

Break me down, break me down, see my damage through the years

(Verse Two)

I’m feeling like a gerbil like I have to run and run

Like the weight i must carry has to weigh more than a ton

This battle’s never ending, I just want to raise the flag

Play people like a game, a type of never ending tag

I’d sell my soul if I could leave my mind just for a day

But magic isn’t real so in the underworld I stay

For now I can speak freely but who knows when that might change

The demons who control me have been acting very strange

(Pre Chorus)

I’m losing all control and I’ve let go of the wheel

I’ve disregarded everyone, don’t care how they all feel

You cannot love another until you have loved yourself

But I can’t look in a mirror without the toxic forms of help

I’m spinning like a ferris wheel, ride my highs and lows

I am feeling dizzy, numbness spreads from head to toes

So sit down, watch me go and please catch me if I fall

You’re witness to the casualties of my internal brawls

(Chorus)

Watch me spin, watch me spin, I’m stuck inside a loop

Break me in, break me in, until I snap then droop

Watch me go, watch me go, watch me let go of my fears

Break me down, break me down, see my damage through the years

(Bridge)

I spit at my reflection and I scream all my rebukes

This ride is slowly killing me, I think that I might puke

The demons have their snacks, my pain’s their favorite show

I’m so disoriented I’ve lost every sense of flow

I can no longer see, slowly losing every sense

This hurt is fucking brutal, each round of pain is immense

My brain is overloaded with the ugly thoughts I think

There’s one that would require me to walk up to the brink

(Outro)

Through all of the spinning, my mind found a dim light

It’s horrid and abusive, darker than a crow in night

I fixate on this thought, it’s the only way to leave

To come up to the surface and to feel like I can breathe