(Verse One)

Oh, look, another night wasted

Why did I drop every piece?

Today had some highs

But, this shit still lingers beneath

Somehow, I fucked up everything

How'd I manage that? I don't know

It feels like I'm slowly

Falling back down into that hole

I'm always smiling in their faces

So they don't know when I'm breaking

Cuz I know they wouldn't want me

If I wasn't entertaining

I close my curtains, lock my doors

Stare at the bottles full of pills

I keep everything container-ed

But tonight, it just might spill

(Pre Chorus)

It wouldn't be the worst thing

To try to end it all again

It would spare them all

If my life would simply end

I've always loved with all my heart

But, my pulse has grown weak

And no one would even listen

If I were to speak

(Break)

Out

(Chorus)

My mind starts to flicker

And so do these memories

I was so vulnerable

Tried to fix that part of me

It's nights like these

When I'll beg for release

They tell me be strong

Just keep going on

(Break)

But, relapse is calling my name

(Verse Two)

They just simply weren't there

When I was in the thick of my suffering

How would they know, how could they know

The depth of all the ugly

Wouldn't expect them to know

But, everyone tells me that they do

They recite the same old mantra

"Soon are the days that won't be blue"

Their view is photo shopped

My truth bleeds red in all these pictures

They pat my back and walk away

"There's just no way that we can fix her"

It's not worth all the texts

And it's not worth all the calls

I'll just keep suffering in silence

Until the last wall finally falls

(Pre Chorus)

It might be the best thing

To try to end it all again

It would spare them all

If my life would simply end

I've always loved with all my heart

But, my pulse has grown weak

And still no one even listens

When I'm trying to speak

(Break)

Out

I can't keep doing this

(Choru)

My mind starts to flicker

And so do these memories

I was so vulnerable

Tried to fix that part of me

It's nights like these

When I'll beg for release

They tell me be strong

Just keep going on

(But relapse is calling my name)

(Bridge)

If I never wake up

Or if I'm bleeding through my sleeves

Can you turn the other way

You can process your grief

The old scars don't look bad

But, the new ones are gaping

I can never tell anyone

All my plans of escaping

(Post Bridge)

It hurts more then you'll know

One day you'll have knowledge

Of the cause of my death

Whatever they might call it

They could say that it's suicide

But, what they don't see

Is I died long ago

All those nights in those sheets

(Outro)

Don't tell me that you get it

Don't you tell me I'll be missed

Could you not martyr my death?

But, I'll be gone, do as you wish

My mind mastered torture

Convinced me that I missed him

If I could, I'd grab my head

And just rip off that limb