(Verse One)

Make a scene, scream a lie

My sickness is my alibi

Swinging moods go to and fro

There’s so much wrong that you don’t know

Saying shit I never mean

My insides jealous shades of green

Eventually I take it back

But can’t erase a single pact

Inside is an ugly itch

Surface level evil bitch

I beg of you for one more chance

I reach for you and snap the branch

Between us is the tree of trust

And you have almost had enough

You slowly turn to walk away

Then this is what I had to say

(Pre Chorus 1)

Please don’t go, I need some help

I don’t feel safety from myself

My brain is out of my control

My darkness has me in its hold

It’s not fair you carry the weight

But you’re not prisoned to the gates

I do not know if you can tell

That it’s not me who’s raising hell

(Instrumental Chorus)

(Verse Two)

The past has me in lock and chain

No matter if it’s night or day

Can’t leave unless I leave for good

But I’m frightened, I never could

I fear and fantasize my death

I curse my name under my breath

The only chance I’d get is one

And I have yet to hold a gun

I’ve been told I’m a tough case

I cannot look me in the face

My body rejects every pill

My mind hinders my every thrill

No blade can cut away this hurt

No moment gives my life a worth

I call my friend, and start to moan

Drive them away, I’ll be alone

(Pre Chorus 2)

I don’t know if I want your help

I see no value in myself

My brain will never start to change

I’ll just grow more and more deranged

I cannot carry my own weight

I’m walking to my evil gates

I do not know if you can tell

But this is why I’m raising hell

(Instrumental Chorus)

(Bridge)

There’s logic behind every strife

There’s comfort in a worthless life

There’s red flags sprouting up like weeds

There’s urges that I need to feed

There’s warning signs that are ahead

There’s someone wishing I was dead

There’s so much waiting to attack

There’s no such thing as turning back