(Verse One)

Filthy words littering the screen

Overcome with this sick shade of green

I just want a little shove over the edge

Each day now is soaked bone deep with dread

Sifting through the driest of the thirst

I’ll be gone tomorrow so please do me your worst

I gave a destination, my fingers gently shake

Simply at the thought, my stomach starts to ache

(Pre Chorus 1)

I’ve convinced myself this will be the final straw

I said you cannot cure a wound if it’s this deep and raw

Hide my racing heart with thin layers of lace

This will soon be over, leave me and death face to face

(Instrumental Chorus)

(Verse Two)

We were on the run, afraid of being seen

Inside I felt worthless like I’d not again be clean

The tension building up as we moved from place to place

Pushed feelings away and painted lust upon my face

We finally found a spot, but the location had a catch

Something unexpected came, in front of me it hatched

It was either double vision or one became two

But my eyes don’t play tricks, without a doubt I knew

(Pre Chorus 2)

The tension was so high that I could hardly hear

I regret what I’ve done and I want to disappear

Afraid if I say no, they’ll still take it as a yes

So I silently walk in the room, watch one of them undress

(Instrumental Chorus)

(Bridge)

One lies upon the bed, the other to the side

His eyes don’t leave my body and silently he guides

I crawl close to the stranger and his eyes are dark with lust

I see this as a compliment since they aren’t with disgust

I gulp and begin processing, the moment my mind broke

I feel myself go numb within each and every stroke

I tell myself it’s fine and I do not dare to move

This is when i realize there’s nothing left to prove

The one moves from the wall and I feel a gentle touch

I’m trapped inside the middle, this all feels like too much

I knew if I spoke out, they’d only mute my words

So I push my fear deep down inside to not ever be heard

Don’t know how long has passed, my mind is drawing blank

My power non existent due to how far down it srank

Next thing I know i’m in my car, hands shaking as I drive

I have the motive now for this sickest plan to thrive

(Pre Chorus 3)

I floor the gas and drive away, not ever looking back

Afraid that if I did they’d be right there to attack

I’ll never say the names because the sounds just make me sick

I really thought that this commitment finally did the trick

I get home and lay in bed, bathing in my shame

Reality sinks in, I’ve got so far in the game

Now I’ve killed my soul, there’s only one thing left to do

One too many drinks or just a bullet piercing through

(Instrumental Chorus)