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Love is how I became a person

That's probably why I'm so fucking broken

I feel like that's all I can do

I feel like I don't know how to do anything else

I hate whatever love formed me

I feel like

As life went on it just

Was like watercolor

Just drifting in different directions

All the wrong directions

Because when I came out

That's when it started bleeding to the left

When I was seventeen

It bled to the right

I don't think that

That love made me who I am

But, it's all I can do

And all it's done

Is cause me so much pain

I feel like

I love too much

And wrong

I can't even hate someone right

I can never close

The book on anything

I just I keep re-reading it

Expecting to find different words

Even though I know

There's not different words

But I keep reading it

Trying to find different words

And there's never different words

I don't wanna love people anymore

I don't wanna need love from people anymore

Because I don't get it

Why?