(Verse One)

I want to scream from the mountains above

Instead I am under the soil

You’ll see a smile plastered on the surface

But my presence starting to spoil

There was a time I was life of a party

But now I’m alone in this room

The past is the past but it rips through my present

No one wants my cloudy days of gloom

(Break)

1, 2, 3, go

(Chorus 1)

Damned is isolation that locks me away

I no longer feel like myself

I feel I am breaking but I just fall apart

I no longer cry out for help

Damned is the silence for all of these long months

Still from mistakes and from my fears

Time loses meaning when life has no value

I cannot define days or years

(Break)

1, 2, 3, go

(Verse Two)

Beaten and tortured, I lie cold on the floor

But i’m the ones who’s hand’s in a fist

My brain has my soul trapped tight inside a headlock

The bones ache inside of my wrist

I punish myself for things I cannot control

I feel like I deserve the pain

In the end I made it worse, it never gets better

I’ve yet to see a single form of gain

(Break)

1, 2, 3, go

(Chorus 2)

Damned is just breathing each inhale and exhale

To know that I’m still on the edge

I couldn’t lean forward, afraid to take the leap

Betrayed myself, went against the pledge

Damned is just knowing I’ll live with this forever

The horror film on loop between my ears

Can’t take it back or fix it, it only did damage

So here I am just sitting in my fear

(Break)

1, 2, 3, go

(Bridge)

I can’t shake these moments, they’re tattooed on my mind

I’ve gone days without any sleep

It’s hard to love myself when I feel so worthless

I’ve valued myself as dirt cheap

I scrub and i scrub but can’t ever feel clean

My skin is stained with my past regret

Reliving that moment, it feels like I’m still there

Soaked in the breaths and soaked in the sweat

I don’t blame the people, I know I’m the problem

I wanted gone, I thought it’d do the trick

Instead I just lie here, covered in the fear that

The moment still makes me feel sick

(Outro)

I was sworn to secret, I fear to sing this song

I haven’t and won’t repeat names

So now I’m left empty waiting for the end

Counting down the moments in my shame

(Break)

4, 3, 2, 1