(Verse One)

I’m lying awake, this insomnia

Can’t find my center, find my chakras

Take a hit out on myself like the mafia

Need to change the conversation, pick new topics, uh

I lead the ring of my own demise

There’s not a single day I don’t feel dead inside

And if I told you that I didn’t then I told a lie

The panic might die down, but there’s repeat rise

Clouds in my head carry thunderstorms

And if I bring it up, they’re walking out the door

They said they can’t handle hearing anymore

My demons loud, but you can’t hear them roar

So I’m sat alone with hell between my ears

I over analyze my most alarming fears

Time starts to slow, has it been days or years?

Wish I could drive away, but I can’t shift the gears

(Chorus)

Stuck hurt

Inhale dirt

Wasted my youth

I’m consumed

Flashbacks

Can’t go back

Can’t undo

I’m consumed

Your grand lies

Behind aqua eyes

You have screws loose

Was consumed

Stole my soul

That was your goal

I still rue

Still consumed

(Verse Two)

I’m curled in pain, the aftermath

I held the devil and still feel his wrath

If he knew I still hurt, I know that he’d laugh

Saying “no one can live if they cross my path”

I still hate myself for all the wasted time

Getting wasted now and try to chase the rhyme

But can’t find the words to cover all the crime

So I just meet the fall each time I try to climb

Ripping through my waters, you’re a hurricane

You’re the lightning and you hit me in the pouring rain

And you’d never take your share, no not an ounce of blame

You said that I agreed when I would play your game

And I can’t lie, to a degree I did

But it was never played fair, couldn’t crack the grid

I’m cursing every inch of how far back I slid

While I lock my pain down so I can keep it hid

(Chorus)

Low self worth

I’ve unearthed

Wasted my youth

I’m consumed

I catch flack

Stuck in flashbacks

Can’t undo

I’m consumed

Hear my cries

That’s your prize

You have screws loose

Was consumed

What you stole

Took such tolls

I still rue

Still consumed

(Bridge)

Still trapped in every single web you spun

Whether it’s day or night, I never see the sun

Like a broken record, replaying all you’ve done

The only way to end it is a loaded gun

I can’t move on, now I can barely move

It’s all down from here cuz I tried to improve

I failed cuz looking back’s all I can do

Chipped my teeth, bit more than I can chew

Consumed my thoughts, you still consume my life

I self sabotage, I can’t put down the knife

Cutting all the ties and tell myself it’s fine

Because they’re better gone than just to hear me cry

It’s an obsession that I try but cannot kick

Can’t dull it with poisons, no matter which I pick

I can’t get to the root, solve the arithmetics

The only thing I know is I’m still in the thick

(Outro)

Wasted my youth

I’m consumed

Can’t undo

I’m consumed

You have screws loose

Was consumed

I still rue

Still consumed