(Verse One)

Should have seen it all along

How could I have been so wrong?

Thought I hit the bullseye, I hit the wall

The higher that I rise, the farther down I fall

Thought I left behind your arcade

I thought I finally beat the game

I thought I won, I thought that I fled

Still stuck in this state, still lie in this bed

(Chorus 1)

There’s no leaving

There’s no victory

So close to giving up

That’s how you made me

The pieces on the board

That you had positioned

I was never consumed

I was just conditioned

(Versе Two)

Apologized on repeat till I mirrorеd it

Bones in my closet, thought I cleared it

Thought that I would wince less when I heard your name

It’s almost two years on and I still carry shame

Told me memories tainted all these places

Now I see that’s just one of your faces

Didn’t used to care, now every win is a loss

I can’t sleep at night, I just turn and toss

(Chorus 2)

There’s no dreaming

There’s just nightmares

So close to feeling safe

But you just made me scared

Your role in my timeline

You set your position

I thought I was healed

I was still conditioned

(Verse Three)

Resentment isn’t a strong enough word

Thought that I grew wings, still caged like a bird

Said after you, I’d never be the same

Hate that you were right, can’t put out the flames

I can’t repair what I keep remaking

Used all the glue, I just keep re-breaking

Gouge out my ears cuz your voice is too loud

And if I could, I’d burn this house to the ground

(Chorus 3)

Wrote many stories

But this isn’t fiction

Stuck in your basement

With all your old victims

From 24 to life

I’m stuck in this prison

I’m only consumed

Cuz I was conditioned

(Bridge)

You changed how I think

Drove me to drink

Brought me up to the brink

Thought I couldn’t sink

Don’t know what was real

Still don’t know how to feel

Don’t think I’ll ever heal

Won’t leave till I keel

Over, you groomed me

Trapped in these rooms, he

Hunted, perused me

With words he’d wound me

No tears to cry

Just sitting asking why

You had to ruin my life

Now I just want to die

(Break)

Maybe then I could feel peace

Maybe then the thoughts would cease

The survival cost will just increase

Only my corpse could break this lease

You’re never the same after you’ve been groomed

You can’t act normal once you’ve been consumed

He’d say “just stop all that bitchin”

And deny that I was ever conditioned

(Outro)

I was never consumed

I was just conditioned

I was never obsessed

I was just conditioned

I was never in love

I was just conditioned

Still trapped in this hell

Still stuck in this prison