Christopher

By Krystal Evette

On Grey

Released on October 1, 2021

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(Verse One)

Dear Christopher, I wanna talk to you

I know by now you've been feeling blue

You don't quite know what's going on inside

But here I am, here to tell you why

See I am you, don't get confused

Some things have changed but so have you

You're so perplexed so I'll shed light

The future for us is far from bright

To this day, I'm still tethered to you

Now I'm the one who's been feeling blue

Your heart skips beats, but mine has stopped

I know these words might make yours drop

I don't want you around anymore

I need to leave you behind this door

Lock the door and ditch the key

Because I need to live authentically

(Pre Chorus)

Christopher, I need to let you go

Though you were me, both heart and soul

You're like a sweater that I've outgrown

And I feel this ache beneath my bones

A scared little boy, deep down a girl

Never thought she'd live to see the world

All the changes, some good some bad

But at the end of the day, we're both still sad

(Chorus)

Christopher, please just go home

If you stay, your soul will be alone

I don't wanna hurt you, but I must stay

You only add black to all my greys

Christopher, you will be missed

But if you go, we might find bliss

Climb up the sky, your soul at seven

And you might find your long lost heaven

(Verse Two)

Christopher, i know it's hard

But it's best to leave your heart in shards

Please do this for us, we might find peace

Be gone from me, I beg you please

There's no place for you inside this body

You need to leave, take all my sorries

I know that god will treat you well

But he might send me down to hell

I'm okay with that, I feel better now

I'm moving on, I can't explain how

I need to be Krystal, you're killing me

I carry you around, you're a disease

But this illness it can be cured

I know if you're gone, it'll work I'm sure

Please just trust me, I won't steer us wrong

But this goodbye is becoming too long

(Pre Chorus)

Christopher, I need to let you go

Though you were me, both heart and soul

You're like a sweater that I've outgrown

And I feel this ache beneath my bones

A scared little boy, deep down a girl

Never thought she'd live to see the world

All of the changes, some good some bad

But at the end of the day, we're both still sad

(Chorus)

Christopher, please just go home

If you stay, your soul will be alone

I don't wanna hurt you, but I must stay

You only add black to all my greys

Christopher, you will be missed

But if you go, we might find bliss

Climb up the sky, your soul at seven

And you might find your long lost heaven

(Bridge)

Christopher, you're dead to me

Why the fuck won't you leave me be

All I want to be away from you

All you've ever done is bring me gloom

The family still calls me by your name

Because you were born, I have you to blame

Some of the blame goes to mom and dad

They only want you, I'm jealous and mad

Mom won't love me if I'm not you

I hear from dad when the moon is blue

You've ruined my life and my relationships

I'm stuck with your baggage, I can't deal with it

So I ask you again will you please just leave

Without you here, I can finally be

Who we've always known I've been all my life

Please take your bags, you're leaving tonight