illusions - Intellectual

[Verse: ZillaKami]

Why ain't you pick up the phone?

Had my back to the wall and you left me alone

I been so far gone

I'm outta' the reach of the ones that can bring me home

As I prep my grave

Criticized by my friends and they said I've changed

And I feel the same 'bout what they say

But I still focus on lame problems from before

Grow bigger when I hold them in more

I can't be around my friends more

Stop winning, then I'll start to lose more

Trust that it is an illusion

So why can't I snap into it

In my hands, I hold the memoir

A picture of us, former to who we arе

Why did you start all of this shit?

I have to take a moment to think about it

I think of no problеms prior to this

I called up your phone, and it was dismissed

I don't understand why you resist

Last time we talked, we left with a kiss

And you seemed so damn passionate

I guess all of that was an illusion