Intro:

I know (x2)

Verse 1:

Why does everything I own seem broken

From ripped paint on tables

To my mind, physically disabled

Imagine an old couple in their 50s

Purchasing their first place

Rat race, rhythm, last days

Written

The younger ones seemingly

In a daze, a reflection of the isolation

But thats my family, or thats just me

Wake up 5 45 on the bus by 6 15

I got no faith in my own dreams

I got no faith in what I sing

And thats the worst thing to say

Because if they hear you write your self off

Then you provide no hope

So thats intangible, I wasn't built to be a hero

Insubstantial

She was the first one I reached out to

She was the umpteenth I lost

And if each ever read my blogs

They would see that im a goner

I used to say my years were numbered

And I guess I still stand by it

Will 24 be the last birthday I ever see

Huh

You could catch me out on the streets

But please dont start anything, because im carrying

Pain, anger and frustration, the only trinity i maintain

The only memory I substain, I shoulda never had sex with her

Because I dont even remember her name, and thats when it all changed

Thats when it all changed

Chorus:

Are you ashamed of me (x 4)

(tranquille)

Listen man, im just confused

Should I keep my composure

Balance it with the agression

Thats a tragedy, a case of crisis of identity

The lace that flutters in the wind is attached to my nike

Or my dress shoes

I rock the black hoody, blue denim

Blues

The colour of royalty

Well I royally fucked up again

I loyally distance all my friends

And thus its so cold

Living in the rat race to genius

I know ill never make it out of this city

And I mean that, I know ill never have her

And I dont really need that anymore

I may not be the suit and tie life

But I mean, I won't make it even a day past 24

So whats life, this is all hypothetical

All optimistic dwelling, unrealistic living

But do you not love me anymore

How could you leave me with this sorrow

Does it even matter that Im depressed

Does anyone ever care unless I kill myself

You go do that, thats the majority sentiment, oh

I guess the struggle was chosen for the boy

Troubles of the world, from 08 and on

I spent the best days of my 20, in and out of hospitals

Worried doctors who never set a future for me

And so when I see the light, and when I made it so far

I mean I shoulda just expired, thats what I think in my darkest hour

Chorus

Outro

Tranquille