change myself - Intellectual

[Chorus: Kite]

Trying to understand why I'm here

Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared

Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye

It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried

Silver love in my drink

It's so hard, I try so hard to change

I try to be okay, I tried afterlife

All this pain will once subside

All my pain will last in the end

I wanna change, so hard to change

I hid my soul, it's just hard to change

Will you save my life?

I'll die on my own

Trying to understand why I'm here

Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared

Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye

It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried

I'm sitting here with all the ghosts in my hallway

Thinking about the bettеr days when all the problems fadе away

Fifty mil' that's all I want and I'ma go away

Goin' somewhere far away, spending all my better days

I see the you in me and that shouldn't be possible

Run into some obstacles and turn it into particles

Lil' angel shawty, she done played me like a cardinal

Dove right in my armory and stole right out my arsenal

You're playing with my head, you won't get away with that

I like to do what I want, if you're okay with that

I'm on a short leash, upside down just like a bat

My people watching, they plotting my aftermath

I'm feeling trapped in like I've got claustrophobia

Endless mazes, I'm trapped in my utopia

Looking for a fix I bought straight from Cambodia

Being left on seen is like my worst phobia