[First Verse]

My intuition tell me we in danger

Mary and liquor turned me to a slave, yeah

Broke off the shackles but can't hide the pain no

I just want the pain to go away

Grandma dementia turned me to a stranger

She on the meds, she lookin' spacey

Moment of clarity she told me baby

I just want the pain to go away, like

Heaven was missing an angel

They say you changing I say they crazy

I see the same

Big mamma taught me everything, you know

How to love, how to sing

On my neck I etch your namе

That won't ever fade away

This pеrfection we be chasin'

You the closest thing to it

Introduce myself to you like

'You ain't used to let me sleep in your room when thunderstorms used to freak me out, and you would just sing me gospel songs till I passed out. Showed me what unconditional love was all about.'

[Second Verse]

First memory domestic violence

Mamma drove herself to the hospital

Ain't nobody take this shit like I did

Used to want the whole world to feel like I'm feeling

Back when daddy said he lost his mind

And we so alike that's a terrifying feeling

Never used to see eye to eye

Thats ironic cuz i got your eyes nigga

Face broke into a million pieces

And they left a scar behind just to haunt me

Imagine talkin' to your crush with war wounds

She lookin' at you like a fuckin monster

Finally ready to talk about it

Ay, finally ready to talk about it

Ay, finally ready to talk about it

Finally ready to talk about it

Ay, finally ready to talk about it

[Third Verse]

Oh lord, won't you send me some peace

Cause ain't no kumbaya here

I promise Chacha tuition to Harvard, look

So I can't die here

She used to praise the ground I walked on

Can time heal the damage I did in my absence?

When I shut down and pushed them all away

Cause I couldn't cope

Ain't seen my auntie since the stroke

Can't even look her in her eyes or

Justify why I went ghost

Big mamma's funeral, the final time we spoke

No family ties, I walk that rope

Can I rebuild the bonds I broke?

Can I be free when the fours pop up?

Realign my home, realize my goals

Try find my soul, try to clear my conscious

Why the new shit a little more honest?

I want my auntie to walk again

Holidays never gon' be the same

Tryna be stronger for mamma nem

Tears streaming down her face so contagious

Matriarchs in my bloodline

Working double time tryna cover pain

Pops around never put him down

Wish I coulda seen em both everyday

I had mamma when I needed daddy

I had daddy when I needed mamma

Never had a voice, never had a say, never had a choice

I found a platform to free all my pain

I'm on that block and I'm showing my brave

You look away when you run into satan

I look that fuck nigga right in his face

Fear is illogical, fear is impossible

Fuck is you talkin' to?

God in my veins

I done been shot at boy

I think I died and came back as a prophet

But I just can't tell

I just can't tell

I done been right on the edge

Like fuck it boy I'm bout' to end it all

Phone ringin' on the edge of the bed

I'd prolly be dead if he didn't call

Can't get these thoughts out me head

High and dry but I can never fall

High and dry but I can never fall

Know my face prolly say it all