[Spoken Word: Craig Xen]

Maybe it's that I believe that subconsciously I'm not worthy

Or deserving of being happy

But for a long time I've not wanted to be here

And there's nothing that I can do to leave here faster

I can't kill myself, I can't

It's not that I don't want to

It's that I absolutely cannot kill myself

I've tried multiple times, numerous times

And I cannot die, I won't fucking die

Some of me thinks, I live to die, and I want to die

Because I want the pain to stop

The medication doesn't help

The psychiatrists and therapists, they don't help

None of it helps

None of it helps