Dear diary I'm writing, hear my tale of the day

It might not be the best but still, I have to say

Ive been dreaming in my dreams someone will say

End of the line I have to take your life

As I observe I can it's me

Standing in a picture perfect family

And I look at myself the carrier of a disease

That come to me with no signs or symptoms

And lust filled like Bart Simpson

Rage in me like I am part human

Yet feel trippy like its lucid

It don't feel real

When I say I loved nigga shit was for real

But all a nigga want is to feel like he can kill

Niggas dying on the daily when will they ever chill

It's like a custom that he always got to keep it real

But what's real when the loved one's can't feel

The urge or the need to be with

Greater number niggas trynna bewitch

But real in the hood is leaves your brains spilled

You expect your death to forever send chills

As a man who beat bills

Cheap thrills

Rest in peace to you as a cheap trick

Could have been a hero but you went quick

I miss the days a wake up pay his taxes

Or the days a nigga take his kids through classes

I know the system there wanna leave you unhired

But if it don't appeal then maybe you deserve it

I had a dad and maybe don't deserve him

I like your raising but didn't like what you were raising

And mom you too you were amazing

Took my crapload words and turned it into caring

If I was plankton then mom you were my Karen

And I'm sorry when I left you heartbroken

Damn I was so foolish to think I would carry on

In your tight grasp that is where I belong

Screw the world 2pac prelude number 4

Life is like a gun but without no reload

You fuck around playing with niggas till one falls

You shadow fight with me, then you should grow some balls

Niggas rapping how they got and go post it

That leaves no difference between you and the clitoris

You think you gangsta but the hood it never fed you

In your time in a cell who ever called you

With mind and soul, you go rep your venue

Find it gangsta that u did time for those who raised you

I find it stupid that you think that nigga loved you

Yeah, you the gangsta but your mama still breastfeed you

It's only true you live once

Meaning that only have to once

Ill make it quick cause ma nigga I'm coming

With the rage of a cyclone to tear his path

With the words of proverbs to teach his path

What I tell maybe you do not deserve it

A second life is what I'm suggesting

Kill our demons

Mean the kid be on the drugs too

But come with me well get further coz we two