Aye

2019

I'm so sick of all of this fighting

My heart beats like a bolt of lightning

Because This life is so frightening

You don't have to like me

But everything you do seems to spite me

It's almost Like you don't want our kids to grow up and like me

But this might be

The end of the line for you

And for me

Our bond was built from lust

But what is that when you have no trust

We ended so badly I'd have rather been thrown under the bus

Over time I grew sick of your touch

You always wanted more but the truth is I gave you enough

I gave you too much and it was never enough

Said you loved me but I called your bluff

Won't lie it was rough

But it made me grow tough

Now it's hard to chase heaven because I know that I'm hell bound

For eight months I've fought you round for round and I've gained no ground

My daughters will be loved and that's a given without a doubt

Downed so many bottles that I'm nodding out

I'm lost but all I want to do is make my daughters proud

Maybe my life would be different if I had chased a different route

I won't be another one of these rappers chasing clout

I forbid it

If I ever say I did it then I meant it

You can't tell me any different

I've walked every mile of every distance

Our lives will remain consistent

As long as you remain persistent with destroying everything our daughters were gifted

It will remain a fact of just how far we have drifted

And for that you'll never be forgiven

I bit into your magic fruit knowing it had been forbidden

That's enough, it's time I speak about the things that I have kept hidden

All of the things that have made me so livid

Like when your boy Tommy called me on thanksgiving

As if everything had been forgiven

Like our families weren't sitting inside of the kitchen

Now my girl is in fear

And this isn't living

But yet so easy for you to play the victim

Like this isn't non-fiction

But your vision

Yeah

But your vision is not what God has depicted

Your life isn't a pic-nic

And you cannot tell me that things are so different

When you're the one that did this