Verse 1:

I can't sleep at night, I just toss and turn

I can’t eat, hunger was lost at birth

I feel weak, both physically and mentally

I can’t beat these demons out of me

I'm lifting my head trying to catch my breath

But try to stay sane, when you live in your deathbed

Verse 2:

It's like I’m constantly having to fight for my life

I'll reach the point where I’d rather slowly die

So I just might grab a knife

Slit open my throat so I can finally speak my mind

Or should I put a rope around my neck and tie

Hang myself from the sky, so I can really see the light

Maybe if I take my life with a nine

Pull the trigger to my head, to open my third eye

Or should I down a bottle of pills at night

Overdose, over the rainbow, to reach the dark side

Chorus:

I just don’t want to live anymore

But what if my mom walks through my door

Will I still be a disappointment, maybe then even more

If she sees me lying dead on the floor

I can’t do this anymore, feeling so deeply alone

It’s not a want, it's a need, is there any other way to go

Verse 3:

I live in fear that staying alive will draw me near

My real self, what if its someone I just can’t spend the rest of my years

This is no way to live, no way to die, but I still

Can’t find a way out of this casket that I built

And I don’t know what scares me more, staying alive

Or being remembered as a fucking suicide

Should I stay alive or take my life

But really, I can’t take something that was never mine

Chorus:

I just don’t want to live anymore

But what if my mom walks through my door

Will I still be a disappointment, maybe then even more

If she sees me lying dead on the floor

I can’t do this anymore, feeling so deeply alone

It’s not a want, it's a need, is there any other way to go

Verse 4:

I’m just existing, I’m just here, I am not freely living

Take my life or take a life? Who am I kidding

Hook:

All-be-damned, I’m back at it again

Me and my mind blowing up like the Taliban

Yeah, my stress up, but I'm blessed up

Not at all

Bitch I’m messed up

Now there’s blood in the bathroom stall

Verse 5:

A switch to my wrist

Shooting my shot

But I’ve only ever missed

Obviously she don’t want me

I’m a mess who’s always depressed

I’ve tried to find love

But someone always fucks it up

First time that I’ve smiled in a while

But it doesn’t even matter

Every time I see those pictures

Makes me sadder

I’m going insane

Called a Mad Hatter

Verse 6:

And one thing that I love and hate the most

Is people always change but the memories don't

And lately I can't even eat

Lately I’ve been feeling ill

When you cannot sleep at night

That's when you know shit is real

You don't even need a gun

You don't even need a pill

If you ever wanna die

Fall in love and you’ll get killed…