SINNER - Intellectual

I'm draining out

The past few hours have been a daze

I smoke too much

Mama said it's just a phase

I'm losing myself

Losing myself all again

I'm fading out

Every toke just feels like heaven

I'm losing touch of my ability to function

I'm losing myself

Losing myself all again

Don't know what to say

Slowly going astray

You don't have a clue

On what i'm going through

God forgive me for

I know not what to do

I've tried everything

But i'll leave it up to you

And i know i'm a sinner

I know i'm a sinner

I've tried everything but

The grass was never green

The moon was always never there

Home nevеr felt safe

Staring at blank space finding mysеlf in a dark place

Just know that I've reached my peak

My will is weak

Too many words in my head but i can't speak

Finding for a calming vibe that unifies the solitude of the seas

Finding for another reason to pass the seasons so i could one day see myself at ease

Please

I just wanna live in peace

Sometime i question myself "what is my will to survive"

Cus eventhough my heads up my soul don't look alive

The stress is building up and can't believe

That its messing up my mind and i wanna fucking leave

I just want

Company

Here with me

Cus lately i feel like i'm tired of thinking bout everything

The thoughts that you bring

Thats deep within

Its makin me sin

I known its hard to find

Solace in my mind

I just need some to breathe and let it all unwind

And i've been thinking bout some ways to say my last goodbye

So don't ask me why