Rawks - Intellectual

When people want to lose weight, they often starve themselves. It actually doesn’t work, because your body goes into starvation mode and saves as much fat as possible.

She’s decided to stop eating, so she could fit into old clothes, but she looks sick- and it’s becoming noticeable to others.

i’ve been friends with the same people for a long time

& i’ve only ever had one car

so they’ve been riding in the same backseat for like 10 years

Flipping has several meanings. K.Flay is flipping bars (A.K.A rapping) but she is doing it as easily as she could be flipping burgers on a grill, illegally selling fake fur coats or performing a sex change operation.

i think everyone should feel like this sometimes,

because it’s probably true

life is this weird mix of caprice & gravity. one minute you’re wandering aimlessly, happily, the next you’re faced with some weird dark shit. i wanted to play with the duality of weight here, how mass can be both light & heavy at the same time

i’m trying not to have a baby right now i can barely feed myself

LOWERED EXPECTATIONSSSSSS

John Lennon famously died young after being shot by Mark David Chapman at the age of forty. The words ‘dead and gone’ are frequently also used to mean intoxicated to an extreme. Hence K.Flay and her friends are like John Lennon in the sense that they are young (literally) & dead and gone (colloquially).

aka saturday morning

i’ve actually already had an endoscopy. they didn’t give me enough anesthesia & i woke up during the procedure

it was kind of scary
but also kind of interesting

if you haven’t read the bell jar,
you probably should

Nora Ephron is a director (although more prominently a writer) of romantic films. She would most likely be able to give K.Flay’s life some direction, notably romantic direction which is a concurrent theme in this song.

The compliments that she receives don’t really get implanted into her mind, so she just sticks to alcohol. When she’s had too much, it turns into alcohol poisoning which makes her puke.

i guess this whole first bit is about isolation, now that i look at it. there’s nothing more pathetic than playing a game for one in a room filled with dozens. funny how everybody feels alone, but uniquely so

http://youtu.be/dJ6KqzLwvF4

with me, i feel a duality between destructive behavior & responsibility. so i drink miller lights & feel guilty

though in actuality i prefer budweiser in a bottle

to any/all people under the age of 18:

the prom queens almost always turn out the worst

i actually knew beirut was a city before beer pong. but i know some people who didn’t know that

george balanchine was a famous ballet choreographer. i think here i was thinking about insular worlds of importance, where people are governed by made up rules that circumscribe entire lives

which is probably just another way of describing everything

mall culture is so insane to me

like, how people just hang out at the mall & smoke weed at the mall & make their money & spend their money at the mall

& probably have epiphanies at the mall too

you know when you’re having a bad day & someone says

‘how are you’

& you say
‘good, how are you’

when really you’re not good at all

yaaaaaa