Plates stacked high, stress keeps piling

We don’t even talk, I hate the silence

And I’ve been feeling like an island

Blinded, trapped in the middle of my mind

I’m in a state of disarray

Aimed for a bang, but I went astray

Got amends to make wish I could end today

Regret in my heart plus the rent to pay

I can’t sleep

Lungs collapse so I can’t breathe

Face the past, no not for me

Forget about a friend my company’s my misery

And we’re happily living in a box

About to collapse like jenga blocks

Holes widen in my socks as I watch the clock

And just pray to the sky for the time to stop

Trying to find a way to make up for my indiscretions

Watched you fall apart so you would think I learned my lesson

Imagine that you magically appear

But I’ve been looking you’re not here

I'm too weak to be strong for you

I’m too weak, baby

Late last night cried in bed

Need to turn off my head

It’s been on overdrive

Feel like shit, no surprise

Suppose that I should open up

But I hide from the truth like most of us

Keep the deceased too close to us

Rules of the game just so unjust

Wish that my dad could be seeing this

Wish he wasn’t cursed with the beast

Wish he didn’t treat every bottle like a secret

Wish in an another world he’d say I quit and he’d mean it

And I need to be locking my thoughts up

Wanna be wonderbread, but I feel like matzah

The cost of living right on the brink

Got time to waste but no time to think

Trying to find a way to make up for my indiscretions

Watched you fall apart so you would think I learned my lesson

Imagine that you magically appear

But I’ve been looking, you’re not here

I'm too weak to be strong for you

I’m too weak, baby

Inevitable it’d be this way

Stuck in a role and it’s on replay

Following the lines in my palms

Thinking to myself where did I go wrong?

Where did we go right where did you go I’m just trying

To get some kind of grip on this grand design

And the answer I get the sense that it’s senseless

Said I wish you left but I never really meant it

And now I’m upended

Energy all spent

Feeding my hunger to be torn asunder

And still I keep wondering why

Night after night I wake in a cold sweat

I’m 24, not even old yet

Afraid to move forward but taped up the rear view

Scared of what it means to be near you

I, I wanna be, be somebody

Someone golden

I, I wanna see, see underneath

Every ocean