Who am I?

Where can I even begin?

You lost your mind again

You sink into my skin

And coiled yourself around my spine

And then you stole the remaining parts of my pride

I didn’t even try to fight

It wasn’t a light I saw in your eyes

Just reflections of mine

Tear me up, lay me down

With no direction, I’m running wild

Who are you?

Who is this monster I see

Sleeping, lying next to me?

You always promised me that you would keep your composure

Tear me up, lay me down

With no direction, I’m running wild

Could you save me?

Because lately, this dark has made its home in me

I’m just in love with my denial

Oh I, oh I, I’m lost and wandering like a child

(Spoken)

Trauma bonding is a psychological response to misuse that involves forming an emotional attachment to the offender. It develops from a cyclical pattern followed by positive reinforcement and creating a false sense of safety. The target may develop sympathy, which is reinforced by cycles of exploitation and remorse. It can happen over any period of time, from days to years, outside of one’s own understanding

Tear me up, lay me down

With no direction, I’m running-

I’m running wild, I’m running wild

Could you save me?

Because lately, this dark has made its home in me

I’m just in love with my denial

Oh I, oh I, I’m lost and wandering like a child