apnea - Intellectual

[Verse: GUMI]

Did she sleep peacefully? He couldn't at all

These life hacks fall flat, it's asinine

There's no consistency, argue with the wall

Count the hours on a hand, it's just not fine

"It's just that phone, you have too much screen time"

Laptop's on the same with TV after nine to five

And even on days where my graph takes a nosedive

Alarm bells ring three hours after I rest my eyes

Said good morning to my father while I headed to bed

Stared at the roof for hours on accident

Online drama like a DVD sign in my head

A screen won't save me, but grass won't either

The moon pulls me toward her

I feel things double at night

Chasing remnants of a false life

To succeed I need routine, the antithesis of me

Don't tell me what I should be, even if you're right

I don't understand-

How I can't sleep at night-

I'm shutting down-

Let's see how long-

I don't understand and I never will

How I can't sleep at night and my body feels ill

I'm shutting down but I can't just sit still

Let's see how long this broken body can last until

Two A.M., I can't make myself louder

Plug it in, dead phone needs power

I feel gross, I need to take a shower

Collapsed but I haven't died so far

Coffee concentrate, mix into my cola drink

And I'm still yawning, it really makes you think

Had enough of fixes that don't fix anything

How could I still believe in God when He's abandoned me