Laurel Leaf (Anhedonia)

[Intro]

We were sleeping and then I heard a sound in the living room

And Daddy came to go check

And then [? 0:10] it's a body

And, and, I don't know [?], like

The body had, like, a speaker in its hand

And, and then [?] goes, dun-dun-dun-da

All the things I told myself and I heard nothing

Every lie I sold myself 'til I quit buying

Found the inner activist and killed her quiet

Buried under processing, but she's been climbing

Up in my tree, I have all I could really need

And the fork in my tongue troubles no one

Shame and relief to be finally, truly seen

As I am, as I'll be, as I'vе been

All the nights I cut myself and I felt nothing

Murdеr every messenger, but they keep coming

Cultivate your loneliness 'til you're a loner

Cradle your anxiety and anhedonia

Down at the end of your day in the mess you've made

And the bones of your bed, she's a shipwreck

What's in a name or a face or a garden grave?

Stomach-sick at the turn of the trick

Left waiting on the airlift out

Stuck straining for the punchline now

Worry away your pretensions of guile and grace

What's the last thing you said?: "God's a basehead

Spinning in place, never fazed by the risks he takes"

Then you fell through the floor on a low, so pure

When you spread at the surf, did your teeth hurt?

Almost awake, I await a redemption day

Laurel leaf, you'll be all I can see

All the signs I showed myself and I saw nothing