[Verse 1]

Abandonment issues is what I found out I have

Oh, God no

Another song about his dad

But I promise this one's different than the last one I had

As I write on this pad I still get sad

Our last times together we were mad

I wish I could take it back but this store takes no returns 'cuz it's broken in half

Like the pencil I begun this song with

I guess it's just my conscience that haunts me all night

You know what?

Fuck this

What did he do to deserve this?

Got too many answers for that one

Don't I?

Cross this line out?

Should I?

But how come I won't I stop complaining as if he was still alive

But maybe i'm insecure and miss you

And just so pissed you had to leave that fuckin' way man

But I know that you didn't mean to

I'ma rap this as if you can hear it

Get through to your spirit

Every day I get closer near it

One day I sure will see it

Time keeps flying by and as it does all of my emotions lack

In so much physical pain that motherfuckin' car accident made all of my bones crack

I tell you I love you now

Oh yeah

What good is that?

Why even write this rap?

I tell you now when I can't even get told it back

[Chorus]

The pain that you had, man I wish that I knew

It all just sucks now, 'cause the way that we're through

I will be stronger but my pain has now grew

Don't know what I'll do but I'll do it for you

The pain that you had, man I wish that I knew

It all just sucks now, 'cause the way that we're through

I will be stronger but my pain has now grew

Don't know what I'll do but I'll do it for you

[Verse 2]

But I do promise I'll take care of mom

No matter for how long

I'll make sure that I state it in this song to keep me from forgetting what needs to be done

My goals have now shifted

Since your ashes have drifted

And your soul was then lifted

By God himself he had did it

Victoria's birth?

You had missed it

You're a granddad

I'm an uncle

And Brittany is a mother

And sometimes I wonder if you were here under

The sky now as a grandfather

How things would be and if we'd get along

Promise this time around i'd admit when i'm wrong

No matter where you are and the things that are done

I'll forever be Kevin B. your own son

I don't even cry now and my emotions are fading

My soul is now draining

My muscles feel like they are straining

I don't even know what i'm saying

I'll just do my best as if you were still here

Goddamnit, I was wrong

Here's just one last tear

[Hook]

The pain that you had, man I wish that I knew

It all just sucks now, 'cause the way that we're through

I will be stronger but my pain has now grew

Don't know what I'll do but I'll do it for you

The pain that you had, man I wish that I knew

It all just sucks now, 'cause the way that we're through

I will be stronger but my pain has now grew

Don't know what I'll do but I'll do it for you

[Outro]

I'm sorry dad

Fuck