[Intro]

Time will show won't it?

But time will show won't it?

I'm still struggling with finding love and I don't know if I will-

Mhm

I take it raw, one, two

One take

[Verse 1]

I wish that it was easy to express the way feel

'Cause I don't want to live a lonely life and be concealed

And I know that type of lifestyle will never be ideal

But what the fuck i'm 'posed to do when I will never be unsealed

But time will show, won't it?

I'm still struggling with finding love

And I don't know if I will do in 2021

'Cause everytime I seem to like someone and want to ask

I always overthink and never do it, never fast

Blame it on my stupid ass and cry about it in my bed

Talking with that crush I have, but never seem to take a step

All my life has been like this, but will it ever change?

Still the same old loser with the same old ways

Must say i'm strange, give myself a challenge

But I never seem to manage, 'cause I always find a shortcut

Tend to run away instead of risking luck

Life's a bitch when I never seem to give a fuck

[Break]

Life's a bitch when I never seem to give a fuck

Yeah

[Verse 2]

Overthinking is a normal habit I have made

I fucking it hate it, but it's been with me since I was eight

With my legos and playmobiles, playing games

Unsure about my moves and how I should've played

And next year i'll turn 18, the clocks ticking

I gotta' fix my shit and dunk it like i'm Scottie Pippen

And tell the one I fell in love with that she got me thinking

But what if she don't feel the same and tell me that i'm tripping

Yeah i've done this shit before, but shit ended badly

'Cause all the people that accept me end up acting nasty

And stick a knife inside my heart like it's a damn finale

Making me wear a fucking mask like I was fucking Sally

That's how it ends sadly, that's how it always been

But who knows what will happen in the end

'Cause everything tends to change in this world according to my friends

Sorry, i'm just overthinking bad again

Fuck

[Skit]

Go, go ,go

No

Please?

What am I supposed to say?

I don't know, just something that comes from the heart

Don-

Don't say fuck you

Don are you recording me now?

I know! You're supposed to say something nice

No, I don't want to

Why?

[Verse 3]

Should I write another verse?

To be honest, think i'm losing it

Scared of people leaving in an instant with no sign of it

Fuck, that's a bad rhyme, shit, let me scrap it

And then throw it in my trash can and never look back at it

What's happening, sun shining and i'm sitting inside

Making songs that'll make my mom and dad be terrfied of my mental

Breathing in and out while at the dental

Almost start to panic when they say they lack parental check up

'Cause i'm the only one showing up to the damn appointments

They be checking out for days though I find it pointless

'Cause I don't find it easy anymore to start a convo

They call me social, but i'm only social when they follow

On my phone playing games I never ever play

Fiddling with everything around me tryna find a way

To leave my depressive state

And stop thinking over and over again without connecting my paper and pen

[Break]

*Typing noises*

[Verse 4]

I remember back in 2020, met this chick and i fell in love

Then we started snapping and talking about the days to come

I started to feel some shit i've never ever felt before

Knew I had to ask her, but i'm such a bore

What if she don't like me like I like her and then sees me as a friend

And nothing more than just another stupid fucker tryna blend

With all the others on her phone, that are desperate like myself

Trying to get her in my life, but i need some fucking help

'Cause I can't tell her what I feel, just in case she do not like me

Or feel the same way and do not want to be my wifey in the future

Jesus fucking christ i'm such a loser

She a ten and i'm a zero, we can never be together

And this pain will last forever, what the fuck i'm 'posed to do?

I'm just a stupid fucking sellout, never going out my room

So instead of being forward and asking her wanna date

She my friend and I don't think that she will ever wanna date

Fuck

[Outro]

No

Please?

Why are you recording me now?

*laughs*

Please say something

No, cause you're recording, I won't tell you

I know

Stop

Go, go ,go

No

Please?

What am I supposed to say?

I don't know, just something that comes from the heart

Don-

Don't say fuck you

Don are you recording me now?

I know! You're supposed to say something nice

No, I don't want to

(Feel)

Why?

I don't want to

You don't want to?

No

Why?

[?]

It goes like mhm, I don't know

Do it again, do it again

Ah, fuck!

Hold on, hold on