I've been releasing this trauma for months

I'm so tired, i want to start repressing stuff

I just want a change after change but i never quite settle

I keep notebooks from years ago in the drawers next to bed and

I keep counting the ice cubes in a coffee every evening

These drinks make me poor and older

But i like the feeling that they're giving

I get jobs where i don't speak and i worry that it's too deep

I write pages of the same rage every morning with a rampage

I draw smiles on the corners, hearts and faces, eyes and lips

God i loved you like a storm loves killing things

I've been releasing this trauma for months

I'm so tired, i want to start repressing stuff

I scroll down, take it out, clothes holding close to ground

I was up and now I'm down, I'm just bored with being loud

Hope you get yourself a cloud that you'll like to rain next to

Cause I was just another lesson on your way to adolescence

A skater boy flirted with me or maybe i just love teachers

He looked like young Curt Cobain and he was 16

I fell and he taught me how to do a simple trick

I fell in love for a second, it just clicked

And i laughed so hard when i thought you'd be jealous

Only now it'd be real, I'd like to know how you'd deal with it

I've been releasing this trauma for months

I'm so tired, i want to start repressing stuff

I'm so tired, i want to start repressing stuff