complex - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I'm twenty-one, the edge is razor thin

Between being numb and feeling everything

Good days only serve as relief again

Now I'm watchin' as I waste away my days and then

It's a cross dissolve, it's a scene I've played before

And the leading role that I thought I'd hold

Doesn't listen to me anymore

But I'm wearin' his boxers, I'm bein' a good wife

We won't be together, but maybe the next life

I need him like watеr, he lives on a landslide

I cry in his bathroom, hе turns off the big light

I'm bein' a cool girl, I'm keepin' it so tight

I carry him home while my friends have a good night

I need him like water, he thinks that I'm alright

I'm not feelin' human, I think he's a good guy

But it's complex, it's a complex

Triangular, I can see them now

Three points at which I let myself down

I was just a girl, what's the excuse now?

Too regular, this pattern

I've been takin' shelter in reachin' new highs

When I was nineteen, I wanted to die

Now I just wanna kill you, but I don't want to paint you the victim

And I talk a good game, I'd die for just the promise you'd listen