[Intro]

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

(Ayy, Benjamin, he got Benjamins)

Yeah, yeah

[Verse 1]

Look in my eyes, it look like I need to pray, huh

Sure hurt inside, but I still smile in your face, huh

I wanna cry, but I can't let you see me cry

I wanna die, but I can't go until I know you good

It was all love, then niggas hated, but I knew they would

It be all fun gettin' faded 'til you get addicted

The system really prejudiced and racist, but they call it business

Police kill a nigga, call another policе as the witness

Homie kill a nigga, wе do twenty on a joint sentence

This where we gon' let the choir sing, it's a joint sentence

I would pray for change, but ain't no change coming

I would pray for rain, but I don't wanna change my fit

I would say her name, but I don't wanna chase that bitch

Actin' like I ain't gon' be sick, like I hate that bitch

Sometimes I be in a mood and I hate that shit

Sometimes I just want you and I hate that shit

Sometimes my ma think I don't love her, I don't call enough

Sometimes my pops think I don't love him, I don't call enough

Some of my sisters feel like I don't love 'em, we don't talk too much

Some of the homies feel like I don't love 'em, I ain't seen 'em lately

[Chorus]

I been going through things

Sometimes I do let the phone ring

I know you be worried 'bout me

I don't want you to worry 'bout me

Yeah, 'cause I be worried 'bout you

You know I'd be hurt without you

Know I got you (Know I got you)

Just know I got you

Even when I'm gone

I been going through things

Sometimes I do let the phone ring

'Cause I know you be worried 'bout me

Yeah, I don't want you to worry 'bout me

[Verse 2]

And y'all know I wouldn't give this up for nothing

I done got so famous that I'm famous to my cousins

Everybody think I made it, but this shit ain't really nothing

All the times I had to smile when I was so sick to my stomach

All the times I said I couldn't and I couldn't, but you ain't believe me

All the times I said I would, you said I wouldn't 'cause you couldn't see it

Mommy and my daddy both sick, I'm just glad I'm breathing

I smile heavy as fuck 'cause it ain't easy, but I know they need me

I been going through things, yeah

I'ma be alright, so don't you worry 'bout me

Long as I'm breathing, I'ma try and make it easy on you

Long as I got it and you need it, you know I'ma come through

Running, speeding, flying

Don't you treat me like you don't know who I am

Told you I love you and you told me I was lying

Don't you treat me like you don't know who I am

[Chorus]

And I been going through things

Sometimes I do let the phone ring

I know you be worried 'bout me

I don't want you to worry 'bout me

Yeah, 'cause I be worried 'bout you

You know I'd be hurt without you

Know I got you (Know I got you)

Just know I got you

Even when I'm gone

[Outro]

Know, I feel guilty

I feel like I don't talk to my mom as much as I should and it really bother me

I hope she always know where my heart is 'cause I don't always feel like I'm doing enough

With my pops, I feel like

I know he going through a lot right now and I can't be there for him the way he want me to be there for him

So I just, I be feeling guilty because I know he going through so much and it's just helpless, it ain't nothing I can do

I just hope he know I'm always there for him

And with all the wrong going on in the world, the hardest place to look is in the mirror

I hear 'em talk so bad about a nigga and all that shit get passed around

I just wonder if it's as hard for them as it is for me

Counting my pockets for they own profit

Don't know what I got or what I make

Just wondering what they could take

It's okay, that's what I'm here for

It's a lot I notice

I notice when I say no, that your care for me often switches focus

But it's okay, that's what I'm here for

I do know that if roles were reversed and I was down and I was hurt

You wouldn't give me your last, you would put your priorities first

But it's all good 'cause you know I'd never ask

I'd rather go out bad than let you know that I'm on my ass

'Cause in my heart, I know my mills due like wet grass

And I'm a hustler, it ain't nothin' for me to get not one bag

Everything ain't always what it seems

Nightmares often get mistaken for dreams

And I don't know what it's like being you, but I can tell you it ain't easy being me

Yeah, the pressure make me stay to myself

When y'all call, I don't always answer 'cause I don't always got nothin' good to say

Everybody go through they own shit and I don't wanna put my problems on nobody

I know y'all worried about me, but I don't want y'all to worry 'bout me because I'm worried 'bout y'all

And I love you with my whole heart

Shoot, the ones that love me the most done hurt me the worst, but I understand and I forgive, I just hope they forgive me too

I been to more funerals than anything and to be absent from the body is to be present with the heart

When you die is when everybody get a chance to have you, you know?

You know, sometimes I wish I wasn't—

You know, sometimes I wish it wasn't gon' be, or it wasn't gon' take that long to get you to understand

But, you know, if sooner than later, tell my child who I was through in and through out

And make sure they know my love the same as you do

TwoFr

Even when I'm gone