My family and friends the most important to me
I'd rather seethe the meat than ignoring the beef
I wish back the times, when I felt the shore on my feet
Now it's like I starve while I eat
Problem's stacked so high that the stars are beneath
My dad's broken, I see his pain, his heart is to weak
He's decayin' too fast, he's fallin' in pieces
My mom and I, we feel nautious and bleak
She's not healthy as well, like she caught a sneeze
Worried 'bout me, too. She had the sorrow indeed
Momma was right, cuz I had some horrible weeks
It's like all the cuts I had, restarted to bleed
My love is burnin' feelin' hot on my cheeks
This one girl, she so wonderful, is causin' this heat
She almost died, I found that really hard to believe
I spend a lotta time with her, I'm fallin' too deep
Why do all my loved ones suffer, it's awful to see
It's like the plague spreading a horrid disease
I can't swim and I'm lost in the sea
It's rainin', my objective is the flame of the torch to keep
The pain surrounding me, is makin' me fall on my knees
It's too much for me, I can't help but startin' to weep
It depresses me so much, that I wanted to leave
This planet but instead I say you this prayer, oh lord
Mistakes are framin' me
Decision's shamin' me
For all wrongs blamin' me
Don't have chance to breath
I put my life in hands
Faith and trust I spend
Family, god and friends
I don't want it to end
Rope, chair, ceiling, hang
Gun, head, bullet, bang
Jump, window, fall, land
On my knees, cryin' and sayin' this prayer
Knife, throat, cut, bleed
Choke, neck, can't breathe
Sit, couch, tears, feel
On my knees, cryin' and sayin' this prayer, oh god
Firstly, flowers bloomin' in the hand of the gard'ner
When she gets your appreciation, she looks for a partner
Sayin' she think of you as more like a father
Nearly cuddlin', now gettin' in contact gets harder
Turnin' her back to me, I ain't shit to her
This pain is overwhelming me, my vision is blurred
Her smile puts me in ecstasy, her grinnin's allur'n'
I thought I knew the ache, but gettin' the mitten hurts
My brother's tryin' to help me, though he's in mis'ry as well
We agreed that this thing called feeling's from hell
Stuck on women, wishin' they would kissin' and tell
Females want the boy's that's just spinnin' their tails
All my friends depressed, wish I could make 'em feel happy
But before I start to interfere, I should look at me
It's just the experience and knowledge I'm lacking
The feeling's like you can't scratch but your whole body is pesky
Don't wanna be alone, cuz I'm scared of my thoughts
There is no distraction not even all the games, that I bought
Every decision is an impact with a problem it caused
Life is going on, but at this very moment I stopped
Anxiety, variety on different layers
Mind is a mess, brain is a chaos
Wish it's a illusion like the girlfriend of te'o
My only hope is to sayin' this prayer, oh lord
Mistakes are framin' me
Decision's shamin' me
For all wrongs blamin' me
Don't have chance to breath
I put my life in hands
Faith and trust I spend
Family, god and friends
I don't want it to end
Rope, chair, ceiling, hang
Gun, head, bullet, bang
Jump, window, fall, land
On my knees, cryin' and sayin' this prayer
Knife, throat, cut, bleed
Choke, neck, can't breathe
Sit, couch, tears, feel
On my knees, cryin' and sayin' this prayer, oh god