Doubts

By Kaelar

On The Wind

Released on August 23, 2021

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[verse 1]

I fucking love how people keep supplying the beats

That shit's inspiring me, fire igniting the dream

I got a list of written hits that I would like you to hear

Sometimes silence is key, but I can’t keep quiet for free

This mind is a beast I've been entitled to lead

But it keeps tugging the leash, I can't keep guiding it’s fears

I got a million fucking thoughts that feel like dying with me

And I kind of agree, but I've also decided to feed

The hunger in my stomach been biting itself free

The wishes it envisions through the eyes of the wealthy

Is thе feeling of imprisonment a sign of healthy

Or is it sinister bеlittlement inside this LP?

I've been dialing an unknown number shouting help me

But it's reply has been as empty as the smile in a selfie

My approach has been stealthy, but these thoughts overwhelming

When is the time to tell me that this might be the ending

Doubts


[Verse 2]

Been trying to the pick the right stones to build me a road

But it's looking crooked and I don't even know where it goes

I got the breath of a dragon but I still sit in the cold

While the mad minded average out there chasing my gold

The story I've been telling gets more confusing as it's told

My future gets more shapeless as I’m trying to mold

Feels like I should be racing but someone put me on hold

And it’s one of us who bought the only copy we sold

But my vision gives me spirit to keep giving my most

The system is rigid but I've been cracking it’s code

The river I'm creating forms a path as it flows

And I'm getting addicted as the madness still grows

The sadness is showing, it got me packing and going

Time to travel to a fantasy where assets unfold

I'm surrounded by love, but in this track I’m alone

It's unraveling slow as I question the facts and the known

I heard a splash as I dove into this hazardous show

But it was muffled by the rustle of the Wind that was blowin'

I take a step in the snow as I do a shot and reload

But I only get one take to shoot a worthy episode

Doubts


[Verse 3]

What is there left to say? Do I go, do I stay?

How do I choose to embrace an unpredictable fate

This life's an ominous game, depending on how you play

Standing in the light just creates a threatening shade

I've been infected with a thought and it just can't be tamed

What if I fuck up the one thing that makes me feel great

I see that shit in my brain, it gives a taste of the pain

And the fact that I can't know for sure makes me insane

I'm feeling lost, I feel drained, I might gone need me a cane

I look around and I see everybody walking up straight

It seems like everyone's all right and in the midst is Young K

Who keeps questioning every god damn step that he takes

And there's no one to blame, accept the man behind the name

Who has no clue how to play this motherfucking game

Who's afraid of the thought that people might think he's lame

Thinking of what other people think drives me insane

I question if you can relate, I think we might be the same

Me? I doubt every single fucking song I create

My biggest dream is being able to make music every day

But I'm afraid this chase will be my biggest mistake

Doubts


[Outro]

But doubts get me nowhere, so I tend to ignore ‘em

And keep going, everyday I try to live in the moment

I discovered this river

And that shit just keeps flowing

I got this crappy little boat, all I can do is keep rowing

At least The Wind has got my back, it'll never stop blowing