Trying - Intellectual

[Hook]

I’ve been trying

I’ve been trying to live

I’ve been trying

I’ve been trying to live

These days I feel like I’m drowning inside my head

Oh I can’t get me out of bed

Lost within my dread

Everything is such a struggle

It’s like I don’t have the will to do anything anymore

Eating is hard, getting out of bed is hard

I just feel so heavy and exhausted all the time

I wish I could just die and be free from all of this, man

Paranoia in my common sense

I guess I’m incompetent, I’ve been losing confidence in everything I do

No success? I’ll wear the noose

Always working overtime but what do I gotta prove?

Maybe I’m still tryna heal from the hurt

From my ex that told me that I was too negative for her

And to this day my trust is still down in shambles

So don’t you take advantage of me, don’t

Ever get close to me

I’d rather be alone, caged up within my home

Masturbating just to cope with all these demons in my dome

Lord I’m so addicted

Everyday my body, mind, and soul is afflicted

Yo man I can’t do this no more, I can’t do this no more

No more faith in Father God for the good things in store

If my life doesn’t seem to have meaning

Then tell me what’s the point of even tryna go on breathing?

I’ve been trying

I’ve been trying to live

I’ve been trying

I’ve been trying to live