Uh (Uh)

Yeah, know it's (Know it's)

It's raining outside, and

Rainy shit, y'know

Average, y'know shits like, y'know

Sometimes I just

Wanna, y'know

Average teen shit, like

Uh, uh, like

Sometimes I wanna off myself

I just wanna call it quits, and slit the wrists

See how bad it bleeds, do it just for kicks

Leave my family with no other option but just to reminisce

Intrusive thoughts are tellin' me "fuck it", but I think I'd be pissed like

See my future drownin' in karma

Don't wanna go outside, I'd rather stay home

Thoughts invade my mind, while I'm sad, all alone

I try until I see the girl that's on the back of my phone

Nowadays I find it hard to cope with losses in my life

I need my homies more than ever now, they know I'm not all right

My girl got too much on her plate for me to bring this to her sight

It's just how I operate, I don't like ruinin' people's nights but

Nights get cold and days get longer

Hours turn to seconds, and my thoughts feel like bothers

Can never talk to my mom about feelings, forget my father

It kills me to be so closed off, it makes life harder

My girl's like 3 seconds away from leavin' me because I keep eatin' away at her heart when it just wants to be peacefully

Miscommunication, that could be avoided so easily

I'm supposed to be enjoying peace but it's just war with me

I'm kinda glad that life doesn't come with an extended warranty

Cuz if I had to do this shit again, I'd return the receipt

I been tryna warn motherfuckers that something's wrong with me

But when they hear this, they'll just see it as another song for me

Now it's got me thinkin like

"Is it worth it? Is this the life I wanna live, will this work?" (Shit?)

I put a big smile on, even when I'm hurtin'

My joyful life deteriorates the minute I close the curtain

Overthinkin' to myself like, will i stay, or will I go?

Will I die, or will I grow?

In all honesty, I don't fuckin know, but so be it

I could give a flying fuck if I'm alive or I'm not b—

Sometimes I wanna off myself

I just wanna call it quits, and slit the wrists

See how bad it bleeds, do it just for kicks

Leave my family with no other option but just to reminisce

Intrusive thoughts are tellin' me "fuck it", but I think I'd be pissed like

See my future drownin' in karma

Don't wanna go outside, I'd rather stay home

Thoughts invade my mind, while I'm sad, all alone

I try until I see the girl that's on the back of my phone (Uh, uh)

Once the past, I'm fine now

No more relapsing on my mothers lap

Now I relax and laugh when I look back

Speakin' of back, my phone is case empty now

I can breathe again, my mind drifts on an empty cloud

Across the country doin what I love, it can't get better

In Liam's room, makin' magical tunes in my Golf sweater

This was my suicide letter, now this my redemption song

This was a cry out for help, but now it's just proof I was strong

No more just draggin' along, the people love my new songs

My career startin' to carry, the growth I've seen is amazing

The vision startin' to get scary, finally feel there's a purpose

No more feelings of being worthless, just glad I didn't fall through in January

That's why

Ion wanna off myself

Ion wanna call it quits and slit the wrists to see how bad it bleeds, and do it just for kicks

Can't leave my family with no other option to reminisce

Cuz if I'm so selfish to end it, my momma gon lose her kid, like

My future now is bright, I'm at home

Always active outside, I'm never cooped up alone

Dreams of livin' rich with whips, all made of chrome

Wake up in the morning, happy as shit to look at my phone, damn (Damn)