I've been going insane
All these years watching you pour
Your life down the drain
That bottle is a ball and chain
Oh so you wanna go out tonight
You wanna have fun tonight
I wanna forget tonight
We popping bottles
You offer drugs
We being wild
We having fun
We doing shots shots
And Jägerbombs
You getting lit but
I'm getting numb
I'm in a place I can't escape
A hell inside my mind
Friends wanna help
They say that this wine
Will help me unwind
Then a hand reaches out
To give me another
No I won't be like my mother
Do you know an alcoholic
I do
It's like going in a circle
A loop
Always talking bout the same things
Not new
Always promising they will change
Not true
I've been going insane
All these years watching you pour
Your life down the drain
That bottle is a ball and chain
I've been the parent to my mother
Since I was yay high
She got rid of me as a kid
So we could survive
Got childhood trauma
From my daddy and my mama
Issues bubbling inside
Like I'm a lamp with lava
I don't cut myself with razors
No more I use glass
Wrapped around some
Gin with olives now
Cause I got class
Nobody suspects a thing
Cause we be partying
I'm already dead inside
I just need to grow wings
Do you know an alcoholic
I do
They be trapped inside a cycle
A loop
Always talking bout the same things
Not new
Always promising they will change
Not true
I've been going insane
All these years watching you pour
Your life down the drain
That bottle is a ball and chain
Think about you all the time
And forgive me for being an alcoholic
And stupid
Trust me on this one
You are gonna be a star hun
You always wanted to be
But you can make it
I know you can
I know you can
So maybe you can understand
Why I don't want that drink
Why I'd rather have a candy with some THC
Not sure if it's better
But at least it ain't the same
Mama I forgive you
So please stop asking
Do you know an alcoholic
I do
It's like going in a circle
A loop
Always talking bout the same things
Not new
Always promising they will change
For you