I hate you more than you could know

In the kitchen on the floor

I threw your shit out of your SUV door

And i had a dream last night that i killed you

While you smiled, and told me i

Could never make you go away if i tried

But i never wanted you to go

Or maybe i did, now i don’t know

I can’t help feeling so afraid

It doesn’t matter anyway

I tell myself that you don’t know

And i just laugh, in undertow

You drag me down, i’m on the shore

I watch you drown, i see no more

And i’ve never been the type to let shit go

But running after you is looking for abuse so

I’ll let you leave

Just go away

It doesn’t matter anyway

I bring you back again, you tell me we’ll be friends

I love you but i tell myself it’ll never happen again

I cry until i choke, you’re breaking down my hope

I swallow down the pain and promise that you’ll never know

I can’t propitiate your god

I can’t just tell you that i’m flawed

I can’t just leave you all alone

I can’t just let you go home

I tell myself that you don’t know

And i just laugh, in undertow

You drag me down, i’m on the shore

I watch you drown, i see no more

And i’ve never been the type to let shit go

But i’m not making more excuses for you so

I guess it’s time for me to swallow my pride

And the tears that i cried

I’d be better if you just-

I guess i’m glad that you don’t hate me

Enough to come back for more ‘cause lately

I just can’t get you out of my head

Another body in the shed

I’ll make you pay for what you did

I’ll tell the secrets that you hid

‘cause i was just a little kid

When i told myself i’d never-