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I finally did it without crying

Twenty minutes ago

It was nice but not like I remember

From when my body was so distant

Belonged to me like an instrument

Not something that I was, but what I played

And I used to think that drinking made people so interesting

Something to talk about to widen their peer's eyes

'Cause everyone loves a good shitfaced story

You've gotta stop when they wouldn't be shocked if you died

We were reading Macbeth In English

I shouldn't say the name but fuck those theater freaks

And it took my breath when Lady Macbeth said she wanted to be unsexed

I said so loud that everyone laughed, it's just like me

Yesterday I went to work in my pajamas

No one even slightly tried to mention it

Made me wonder why instead of my own comfort

I always try to be so goddamn stylish

I live my life like it's a movie someone's watching

And I always loved that until just recently

Until I realized I'm a birthday clown

Who can' t even juggle

And I'm the only one watching the movie

I'm the only one watching the movie

I'm the only one watching the movie

I'm the only one watching the movie