They say that bad things happen for a reason

But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?

Like I already hate myself…

Yeah

I hate what I’ve become

All the pain that I feel, I wish I could let go of some

All the thoughts in my head

Wish I could sleep off in my bed

Instead I lay awake

Replaying all the shit I wish that was fake

All the people I lost

The things I’ve done, at what cost?

Chances I had

Things I shouldn’t have said, my bad

I never think before I speak

I just run my fucking mouth

Thats a shitty thought

But hell its true

They say that bad things happen for a reason

But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?

Like I already hate myself…

I always lose my judgement

When I drink

Fuck I hate myself

I really do

Like you don’t even understand

Being me is so fucking hard

Trying to make everyone happy

But there’s always that one people who’s snappy

Ex girls needed to much

And I still cared a bunch

Family expects too much

And I still tried a bunch

Fuckkkk

Work and school, I try my hardest

Really I think I do my best

But I just keep on failing

And all this shit is all building

Turning to drugs

Or something to help me stay numb

This ain’t a healthy life

And I don’t want it

I just wanna be happy

Instead of waking up feeling crappy

But I don’t know what else to do

I don’t know what else to fucking do

All my chance I already blew

Fuck I need help…..

I hate what I’ve become

All the pain that I feel, I wish I could let go of some

All the thoughts in my head

Wish I could sleep off in my bed

Instead I lay awake

Replaying all the shit I wish that was fake

All the people I lost

The things I’ve done, at what cost?

Chances I had

Things I shouldn’t have said, my bad

I never think before I speak

I just run my fucking mouth

They say that bad things happen for a reason

But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?

Like I already hate myself…

Yeah

I hate what I’ve become

All the pain that I feel, I wish I could let go of some

All the thoughts in my head

Wish I could sleep off in my bed

Instead I lay awake

Replaying all the shit I wish that was fake

All the people I lost

The things I’ve done, at what cost?

Chances I had

Things I shouldn’t have said, my bad

I never think before I speak

I just run my fucking mouth

Thats a shitty thought

But hell its true

They say that bad things happen for a reason

But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?

Like I already hate myself…

Sorry this ain’t my best work

Its just hard to put in effort

Im so sick of feeling like a piece of shit man

Like why do bad things only happen to me man

I do all this shit and end up with nothing

Im tired of running and overworking

I need a break

From life

Yah feel me

They say that bad things happen for a reason

But why the hell do I feel like they only happen to me?

Like I already hate myself…

Ive already tried to end it

But I can’t hurt the people around me

Fuckk I hate myself