Mixed Emotions

By Josh A

On Fearless II

Released on June 17, 2022

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[Intro]

Lost inside my head, this time it feels like I'm not crawlin' out

Stuck with all this dread and I can't fight it, so I'm callin' out


[Chorus]

Can anybody help me? I know I been stuck in my ways

Don't gotta tell me, 'cause lately, I been tryin' to change

And it's unhealthy the way that I been takin' the blame

I let 'em hate me, 'cause I don't really care

I'm sick of goin' through the motions, tired of losin' focus

Always do my best, can you tell me why I'm broken?

I'm sick of my emotions, words I've never spoken

Always in a cloud above my head and now I'm hopeless


[Verse 1]

I wish that I could dive right in it, love when I'm winnin'

I been nonstop workin', 'boutta burst through the ceiling

But the outcome never seems to match what I'm feelin'

And the thoughts run through my head, they don't want me to breathe again

Yeah, and it's been killin' me to see just what my life's like

Yeah, I went to therapy to try to get my mind right

Told me I'd feel better if I'm stayin' out the limelight

But I couldn't do it if I wanted


[Refrain]

And I can't explain this feeling

My heart's been fighting my brain

All up in flames and I've been

I've been callin'


[Chorus]

Can anybody help me? I know I been stuck in my ways

Don't gotta tell me, 'cause lately, I been tryin' to change

And it's unhealthy the way that I been takin' the blame

I let 'em hate me, 'cause I don't really care

I'm sick of goin' through the motions, tired of losin' focus

Always do my best, can you tell me why I'm broken?

I'm sick of my emotions, words I've never spoken

Always in a cloud above my head and now I'm hopeless


[Verse 2]

I got too attached to my past, now I gotta kill the old me

Lost way too much, so don't tell me that you know me

Lost everyone I had now all I know is feelin' lonely

Try to stray from this path but I can't, 'cause it chose me

I can keep goin' on but I save my breath

I distract myself, just write another check

And I just gave a quarter-million to the IRS

Another quarter for a trip just to decompress

So tell me why it's not workin'

When I could buy like anything I want, life should be perfect

But there's more to me than what you're seeing on the surface

Happiness was something I could never seem to purchase

I swear, like everyday, I been hurtin'


[Refrain]

And I can't explain this feeling

My heart's been fighting my brain

All up in flames and I've been

I've been callin'


[Chorus]

Can anybody help me? I know I been stuck in my ways

Don't gotta tell me, 'cause lately, I been tryin' to change

And it's unhealthy the way that I been takin' the blame

I let 'em hate me, 'cause I don't really care

I'm sick of goin' through the motions, tired of losin' focus

Always do my best, can you tell me why I'm broken?

I'm sick of my emotions, words I've never spoken

Always in a cloud above my head and now I'm hopeless