38 - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

Star gazing

Late night conversations

Imagining what it would be like to be rich and famous

Practicing in front of an audience that's deaf and faceless

Remote’s a microphone

Bedrooms are stages

Not too long ago I used to think of sex as sacred

But I've been fucking so much lately I don't even taste it

And I believe in God, but I wonder if He has faith in

Our existence here of does He cry from our creation

Nightmares of my childhood being taken

Birthed a traumatizing fear of humiliation

Pissed off inside but silent ‘cause I am just waiting

For you to speak first, too stubborn for communication

And way too paranoid for anyone to see me naked

Without the armor that I wear to prevent invasion

When the end does come, it'll be long awaited

‘Cause all you have is your word and your reputation

Now I was hoping you would see the way I see but if you don't then that is fine by me

‘Cause I was hoping that we’d become everything we said we'd be but hey it's fine by me

And I put that on everything

False realities and promises of wedding rings

Got us fighting for what never was. We never seem

To count the blessings thats in front us, we let it be

I always thought as long as I had you next to me

There would never be another thing I’d ever need

Fooled me once, replaying everything you said to me

I refuse to let another get to me, I ain’t going

And I put it on God

Didn't think we'd even make it this far

But I doubt that we gon’ find our way

And I know that I’ma be ok

I just learned you should never drop the guard

Everybody isn't meant to see your scars

Some people only see your face

Before they turn around and walk away

And even then, I was praying and was

Hoping you would see the way I see but if you don't then that is fine by me

‘Cause I was hoping that we’d become everything we said we'd be but hey it's fine by me