[Verse: Johnstoned]

When the inevitable comes; it sure spark regrets

The fucking years im thinking I couldve made amends

Now we're all waiting in sorrow until then

By your bedside grasping on your hand until ten

Grasping on the golden days memories of us then

Thats where the majority of my childhood must been

That's all we really have to reminsince together mutual

As a baby id visit you in your room and that was usual

You would always chew tobacco as I play on the floor

With the VHS tapes like ABC blocks from the store

I mean it wasn't like we was bored, it wasn't like we was poor

That was me bonding and now I wish I could have more

Back when you lift me and now I can lift you

But I ain't lift your hand to sit and pray with you

But thats all really you wanted, thats past tense too

Old memories is the only thing to make me miss you

Unfortunately because as I grew up we grew distant

You fell in the bathroom now a diaper is where you piss in

An adolescent facing friends, drugs, popularity

I was blinded by the world and didn't face reality

While you were slowly dying and I swear i'll shed a fucking tear

If you ever were on your bed wondernig why I wasn't fucking here

But now I wonder the same and it breaks my fucking heart

How the way I grew up tore a relationship apart

It hurts because I realize ignoring it would deflect

The irresponsiblity of not paying respect

But it hurts me the most because you would never speak

But attempt to mumbling just when you see me

Damn I fucked up, you're dying without much of

Images of your favorite grandson but stuck up

Because whenever I visit man I just wanted to leave

Thinking it wasn't important but now I really see

But what can I do now besides reminiscne?

Learn from this lesson but its you that I miss?

Replaying images in my head I was small when

We played hide and seek and you had to find me callin

After me in your chair chasing me I was jogging

Now you're in the bed and I have nightmares that im fallin

So I hope your last thought wasn't captured and caught

By the reason I never brought my respect or myself

And you're staring at the shelves sitting at nursery home

Thinking to yourself where did my family go

And I hope best your last breath wasn't the gasp of a cry

Thinking if he could step why didn't he pass and say hi

So im depressed and stressed so pass it and get high

You should've left without a dread of the past or ask why

But instead thinking fresh in the vast after life

And die a free spirit and even if I can't hear it

I know you're guiding me the right turns I wanna be steerin

Cause in this crazy flight, hazy highs with dazy eyes

Only way to grasp at life maintain this shady life

Because as I got older it seems the world got colder

Self esteem was bolder so I grew a fucking boulder

On my back, weight on my motherfucking shoulders

And paragraph regrets on my chest but its over

So rest in paradise maybe take a listen

Unique laugh, soft skin, and grey hair glistens

For the family i'll look out, look up to you while looking down

Whatever it takes to prevent you from antoher frown

I'm sorry I had to learn a lesson through your fate

Of dying wise, old, beautiful,and no hate

Just a peaceful mind state thats what im needing

Keep repeating the same contest because im fiending

To fully deliver the message tryna fully stress the meaning

To get this guilt off my mind but then I realize

To move on from the past

Like my great grandma would really want

Move on from the past

Like she would really want

To live and last

Then in heaven where we would talk

And make up for everying and then catch up

But who knows what life'll bring it's sad huh